What makes you go on? How many people really keep existing just so their loved ones don't have to go through loss, even though it feels like suffering? A lot of times I feel like I'm not made for this earth and ask why I'm here. But if someone said the same to me, I'd tell them life is worth living, and try to convince them to keep going.

>>33306322 (OP)
>What makes you go on?
1. It's fun.
2. A plan.
3. Pure bloody-mindedness.

>>33306519
And by the way, those three are mutually reinforcing: The plan includes living forever (not guaranteed, but if not, I'll die in the attempt). But living forever *foresaken* would be giving up a hell of a lot of fun (actually, an infinite amount). So I suppose I'll just have to actually live forever. The third reason is a re-write of Clarke's Law, infused with spite: Any enemy can be destroyed given sufficient time, as long as you keep showing up.

>>33306322 (OP)
For me? It's pure stubbornness. I will not let life defeat me no matter what. I don't give a shit how much it makes me suffer, I will not give in.

>>33306322 (OP)
>What makes you go on?
my children
once they exist everything becomes clear

>>33306322 (OP)
1. survival instinct
2. cowardice
3. false hope

Ironically, 2. is the same reason people don't life more fulfilling lives in the first place. The tragedy of suicide is, if they had had even a fraction of that courage at literally any other point of their lives, they wouldn't feel so sad and unvalued.

>>33306322 (OP)
>What makes you go on?
To find out what happens next.

>>33306322 (OP)
Well, I try to do fun things every day, even if it's just sit and play the guitar for 10 mins or sit in the sun with a coffee at lunch

I also want to be a good husband/father one day. I think that for me, life will truly begin when I have a child. I had a very lonely/boring childhood and suffered from very low confidence. I want the opposite for my kids and I think that'll feel good.

I don't care about work - it's boring.

I'm not too fussed about my friends, honestly - they're quite a negative and sarcastic bunch.

So yeah. Just having fun/enjoying lifen and then the hope of being a family man.