I get Depressed super fast around the holidays. And 4th of july is gonna suck hard. Alll my friends are visiting each other and their family’s are gonna be occupied. But im here fkn sick AND for years now ive never been invited to anything..

I just wanna drink and cut and take naps… i want advice on what to do on the 4th. Whether it be self destructive or not i dont care. I just hate how all holidays are a fkn reminder of how lonely i am and feel…my family hates holidays so

(Please tell me recipes to help me soothe my sadness <3 or activities)