So my friends have told me to start talking about the issue, so i'm gonna just throw it here.
My friend got some news, their dad died. They weren't close to him, hardly knew him. But they wanted to meet his friends and people around him. So they come up from a town 2 hours away, and come and stay at the place i'm currently roomed in.
well usually we like to just hang out when they come up and usually it is gaming, or just not really doing much. This time we wanted to drink. so we drank.
we drank and drank but to be honest, i had a bottle of soju. They had like a little less than a quarter of a bottle of vodka.
we were playing some game, every time we died, we took a shot, and we died alot.
but then they say "wait, i gotta go to the bathroom"
mind you they are downstairs on my console, and im upstairs in my room, on my computer.
My ex lives here too, whole other story.
my ex is asleep, and i usually like to have my door cracked for my cat. They walked in, and closed the door behind them...
they come and sit on my bed, and i turn to them, curious as to why they closed the door.
"hey, finish your bottle."
so i do as im told, not much left anyways.
"so....what if we make out?"
blank. surprised. lust?
idk what came first.
this is a person i had a crush on in highschool. i don't know why but i feel so close.
9 years, and they ask me this.
they asked me.
not me asking them.

>>33313224 (OP)
So what's your question

They are a FtM. But no surgery, just pure woman.
i've been wanting to see them, and feel them before but never really went after it.
was with my ex for 6 years, lived in the house im housed in.
my ex is in the room next to mine.
they are asleep. "we have to keep quite...they can not find out."
i know.
9 years, behind this kiss, this make out session.
it was more intimate than the 6 years i was with my ex.
it was so exhilarating.
i feel as if im being given something i've been lacking my whole life.
they are on top of me. this is a first, as they are not fat, but not skinny.
skinnier than me.
i love their bones, their body. feeling everything.
then one thing leads to another
"how is your head game?" they ask me.
so what do i do?
i show them.
i hated doing head with my ex. their fupa was just too big to breath while giving oral. this was so refreshing, something new.
it's amazing.
then "if it fits it ships." they say as i go to put it in.
i've never had missionary to where i can be close to their face.

>>33313235
You still have yet to describe an issue. Sounds more like you are bragging about sleeping with a friend. Which isn't what this board is

>>33313252
>Which isn't what this board is
You would be surprised

we don't finish. they tap out. and get their things together and leave.
i'm still taken aback about what just happened

we go back to playing the game.
more shots, and my bottle is out, so i have to go downstairs, while down there, i try to go in for another kiss but they say "noo, not with the cameras watching."
so i go back upstairs, we lose again.
i go back downstairs but this time they get out of the cameras view. we go back at it, making out all over the kitchen.
they smell so good.
they taste so good.
god i love this, this is what i've been needing, wanting.
why do i feel this way?
after everything, the next few days i sit and pester in my feelings, thoughts, and break.
i tell them, "hey, i think i've gotten feelings for you."
"i just want someone who is adventurous"
it hurt so bad.
the next day i down most of a bottle. they leave me with these feelings.
now we are here.
i thought i got over it, but here i am. stuck in my feelings, wanting it again, but also wanting closure to being used.
for grief?
for pleasure?
they would never ask me, i would never ask them.
why?
it feels like this ruined our friendship, and im stuck, with no one to really talk to about this issue.
sorry anons. just wanted to get this off my chest.
this is my first time being used as a one night stand, and this was with someone so so close to me.
i don't know what to do.
i want it again but i don't think they would ever want to do it again.
i am just do disgusted.
masturbating after that feels wrong.
doing anything with my dick, just feels like it ruins everything.

>>33313252
>So my friends have told me to start talking about the issue, so i'm gonna just throw it here.

sorry anon. just wanted to get this off my chest, i'm not trying to come off as bragging.
i'm just hurt.

Did you not even bother to lurk moar and see there's a thread dedicated to venting? No wonder this person decided you're not worth being close to

>>33313224 (OP)
what's up with all the they in this story just state if you're a faggot or straight I don't wanna waste my time reading some faggotry

>>33313224 (OP)
What a boring story