>Be me
>Suffer psychosis for 2 years because unable to accept how devalued and discarded I got, "I must reframe it" but I couldn't reframe shit
>Yesterday, after 2 years, think back to when I upset her and the devaluation started
>Start imagining her from that POV, remember the pain I caused and can imagine even apologizing to her now, suddenly forgive her and feel empowered
>"Finally, I have let go, I forgive her and even if I see her, I can even talk to her now"
>Bitterness gone
>One day later, start ruminating about how she probably ridiculed me and how it might've been this or that
>Become bitter again

I mourned her all of yesterday and today, forgiving her, remembering her in the way that I wanted (not the devaluation) and I thought I was finally over it. I mourned her.

And now the resentment and bitterness comes back again from nowhere.
HTF do I stop aside from just not thinking about her? She confused and hurt me a lot
Do I just integrate the bitterness?