I forced myself to have sex with a man last night. Not a trap or a femboy or anything. Just a regular, grown-ass man.
I had to close my eyes and try to shut him out to the best of my abilities. His awkwardly bulky proportions, his arm and leg hair, his deep grunts, his rough skin and wide shoulders, all these things made it incredibly difficult to achieve and maintain an erection but after a great deal of concentration I was able to cum in him.
The wave that washed over me after I finished was unbelievable. I pulled out, stood up, took one look at him and immediately felt dizzy. I went to the bathroom to quietly dry heave into his toilet but managed to refrain from actually vomiting.
He wanted me to stay the night and talk with him some more but I left briskly, rambling about having to get home to feed a dog I didn't actually have.

Last night was the lowest point of my life by far. I let loneliness get the better of me and deluded myself into believing that it's better to fuck someone you are not even attracted to at all than to continue withering away in isolation, and now I know from hard experience how ridiculous that line of thinking actually is. But being alone is still miserable and my luck with women is so bad it's pushed me here anyway.

I want to die.

>>33315727 (OP)
You will never be a woman

>>33315727 (OP)
Incredibly selfish

>>33315728
I'm not trans.

>>33315727 (OP)
>I forced myself to have sex with a man last night.
for what purpose?

>>33315732
>>33315773
Did you not read the post? Maybe I should have been more specific, but I am 29 year old KHHV and am extremely lonely and horny. I was so overcome with lust that I decided to do this

>>33315727 (OP)
what the fuck is that OP image. anime girl wojacks.

OP sorry you put yourself through that experience. Don’t do that shit again.

>>33315785
Doesn’t mean you aren’t a selfish cunt you whiny little faggot

>>33315785
but you aren't gay

>>33315819
Yeah I know. But I wanted a sexual release with someone else and women are completely impossible

>>33315727 (OP)
its ok OP, we all do mistakes
but i can imagine how disgusted you must feel rn, you might need therapy

>>33315822
No, you're gay as fuck. If you fuck a dude, you're gay. Saying otherwise is cope. I've had long dry spells but have never once wanted to fuck a dude. Faggot.

>>33315727 (OP)
Why the fuck would you do that, OP?

>>33315785
>I am 29 year old KHHV and am extremely lonely and horny
Yes, and?
Isn't porn enough to get that out of your system?
I remember overconsuming on porn in my late teens / early twenties,
because I'd heard that too much porn reduces one's libido,
which is exactly what I wanted, despite those people billing no libido as a bad thing.

Why on earth would you do this lmao

>>33315998
If he were gay he would've enjoyed fucking a man

next time just pay a whore retard

holy shit

Well you're a faggot now OP. Congrats. You should kill yourself at this point, the world has too many of your kind as is.

>>33315785
Would it have been better to remain a virgin? You're not even an incel anymore

>>33315727 (OP)
bros would literally have gay sex before talking to girls

>Not a trap or a femboy or anything. Just a regular, grown-ass man.
honestly it's even more gay to have sex with a tranny trappy shemale feminine penis ladyboy etc.

I respect two fellas getting each other off, but if one of them is all OMG HAVE YOU SEEN MY NAIL POLISH LOOK AT MY SHOES then that's just weird

You managed to cum in a man's anus that's crazy

>i cant get pussy so i will fuck hairy man ass instead

lmfao

>>33315727 (OP)
Hahaha, AHAHAHAHAHA!
>God, I wish I had a GF
>I know, having sex with some dude will surely make me feel better!

>>33315727 (OP)
you're gay bro, as much as you want to deny it
I can't get hard when I'm close to another dude no matter if he's trying to make me hard (it has sadly happened in bars and in massive public events... and once when I was a kid).
you're gay in denial, the worst kind of gay there is.

>tfw some 29 year old prison gay had sex before me, a 34 year old gay virgin, did

>>33315727 (OP)
>and now I know from hard experience how ridiculous that line of thinking actually is
So you learned something of real value from the experience