This may sound silly, but I have developed a sort of personal philosophy, one that literally only applies to myself, that was born from self hatred. My question is should I hold onto a belief that prohibits me from making friends, dating, spending money beyond needs, and other typically "good" things?

The answer will probably be "NO! (retard) you will just hate life." But that's the point. I don't deserve the good this world has to offer.

>>33316030 (OP)
Oh, are you talking about a stricter ruleset of behaviour for you than you apply for everyone else?
I honestly couldn't tell you: I'm currently reëvaluating my own inhibitions and behaviour. It might take a while.

It's not all bad: It's generally known as Postel's Law or the Robustness Principle.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Robustness_principle

>>33316030 (OP)
>that was born from self hatred
It's not a philosophy, it's called a cognitive distortion. You can look that up if you are so inclined. Philosophies come from a ration place, your ideas are not from a rational place. So yes, you should give up this mindset immediately. Philosophies are supposed to help guide you through life and to make sense of it, not inhibit and cripple you.

>>33316082
Interesting...How could it be said that I have not rationally conculded that I am an awful being that deserves the least though? I feel like you could totally do that

>>33316123
Because the feeling of being irredeemable and unworthy of anything is the most common sign of a mental illness. Even if that weren't the case and you did something truly awful, your philosophy is still flawed. That's because if you were contingent of being so awful, you feel guilty about it. So your philosophy should involve atonement by helping others. Cutting yourself from others leaves you no room but to be anything but awful.

>>33316157
The good thing I do for others in hope for atonement is leaving them to themselves. Would this not minimise any harm to a maximum? If I am not there I can't do anything.

>>33316174
This then is based on the flawed assumption that you don't matter to other people, or that other people want you around. It'd be avoiding them for your own benefit.

>>33316197
I know I am a self-pytinging and ungrateful prick for saying this, but I SHOULDN'T matter to people. They SHOULDN'T want me around. They may not know it but I am avoiding them for THEIR benefit. I am doing them a favor. But for some annoying and nonsensical reason I felt the need to make this post.

>>33316233
Ah! You feel a burden on the people around you.
Fuck that noise: Don't push them away; be honest and friendly with them; you'll also be happier in the long run.

>>33316233
>I am avoiding them for THEIR benefit.
That's not a choice you can make for them. That is being selfish. It's a post hoc justification. It's not that they are hurt being around me, it's I intentionally hurt them to push them away from being happy being around me. If you hurt someone and they react in a negative or scary way, you can blame them for their reaction. But ultimately it wasn't their fault, it was yours for hurting them to that point.

>>33316030 (OP)
make an album before the idea rots