Have you ever taken the phrase dont stick your dick in a crazy seriously?

I got back with my ex and I started feigning erectile dysfunction because she said she wouldn't have an abortion.
This went on for months. But it was driving her crazy and she started asking for an open relationship because of the lack of sex.
This is when I broke up with her.

But I noticed this was mind fucking her hard. In reality I was gauging if she was mentally stable enough to stay with and risk having kids with. Because she showed extreme mental instability the first time around and I believed her excuses. But I felt I had to be really sure.

But I had to really commit to this bit. Even when she tried to suck my dick I had to decline. Because she would get suspicious why I'm hard for blowjobs and not sex. But she was getting insecure and asking what was wrong and told me to get on pills. But I never got around to it.

I felt since I was gauging her mental stability she felt like I was keeping her at an arms length. But I didnt realize this made her want me more.

Now I ask myself did she just make mistakes. Did I drive her even more crazy than she was?
Did I save myself from a lifetime of trouble?
I've had too many friends that stuck their dick in crazies and now have kids. Even though they're no longer with them.
One of them has an autistic kid and he got full custody, cause his ex didnt want the kid and left the state.

Is it justified to ask for an open relationship because of lack of sex? That was the deal breaker for me

>>33318358 (OP)
>I got back with my ex
Found the first mistake you made

>>33318358 (OP)
You're not fucking her. What are you wanting here? It's not someone that you feel like you can trust to have a relationship with because of the abortion thing, evidently. And yeah, when we don't get laid we start acting really fucking weird and insecure. You are making your own problems by doing this, and you're retarded for it.

>>33318804
mainly cause she said she wanted kids when I only started dating her for 2 weeks and broke up with me when I refused, she in her own words admitted she wanted to take her life and couldnt get over it when we broke up. Is it normal to cry for hours after only dating 2 weeks. She regret it but I didn't want her back.
Mainly cause I didn't believe she truly loved me.
But her claiming she never got over it (i took her back a few years later) makes me believe I must have been special to her but why?
She said it was because she lost her virginity to me and never dated anyone else.

>>33319175
How many years were you apart? I'd take that statement with some skepticism if she's claiming she never slept around or tried dating again in that time

>>33318358 (OP)
Some men drown when others die of thirst.

>>33318358 (OP)
sticking your dick in crazy is risky but has rewards (they can be fucking crazy in bed too)
>risk having kids with
getting crazy pregnant, on the other hand, is a life-ending mistake. don't be a dumbass anon

>>33318358 (OP)
You are way overthinking this. Its not that deep.
You dated someone mentally unstable, felt put off, she had a mentally unstable meltdown about it, and now youre acting like Plato about it.

>>33319195
4 years. I was definitely her first. But when I got back with her, her pussy looked different, I don't know I'm not an expert. But her lips looked and inards looked like they were bigger or spilling out more.
Maybe more beat up?
I don't know
But she was basically a catholic girl that was a huge shut in with huge anxiety issues and wouldnt leave the house.
She claimed to me the reason she wanted to have an open relationship is because I'm the only person she ever had sex with (4 years prior) and now I had erectile dysfunction and she wanted someone to have sex with.
She was also upset that I abandoned her and ghosted her. And would keep bringing that up.
I think the only strange thing is she immediately wanted to be bf and gf again when I contacted her and didnt want to ease back into things.
I just have a really hard time believing I'm truly that much to her.
Something always felt off.

>>33319412
How am I acting like Plato?
The reason now is I feel tremendous guilt. She more recently had a more severe meltdown where she cut off all her lifelong girlfriends.
I am blaming myself but she refuses to elaborate what is going on.
Her girlfriends wouldnt answer me either because I was afraid she was gonna self harm.
I think it's hard feeling responsible for the girl whose virginity you took is having a hard time and you feel as thought you're responsible. But she's in her 30's now. She should know better.
She didnt lose her virginity until her mid 20s
her hymen was still intact
The day I took her virginity. Her mom was calling every minute and she was ignoring it

>>33318358 (OP)
You sound like a psychopath