What do you do with the personality of this guy? For all the comparisons I get to le bazinga man, I identify much more with picrel. Emotions are a burden. Only logical things are worth doing. Only logical things are worth talking about. It's not that I can't feel, but I've trained myself not to, mostly.

The result of this for me is that I never talk about anything because women especially but also even my friends only want to talk about their vapid, stupid, irrational interests. So I have nothing to say, I fail to make conversation, and then everyone thinks I'm weird. I absolutely cannot focus on the now. I can only focus on things I want to do in the future, things I want to learn and see, while everyone around me just gets stoned.

Unfortunately my friends and finding a wife for procreation are both generally rational ends, so I still want them. The fuck do you do with that?

You take that focus, and instead of applying it to negativity, you try positivity. If you don't, I think it will lead to your misery.

You didn't watch Spock very carefully if you think your post is reminiscent of a man like that. Spock is logical, and doesn't back down from what he believes in, but he is also diplomatic and deeply loyal. He finds deep and consuming value in interaction with his friends, even if he struggles to understand them or has to use irony to get them to understand his point of view. He isn't dismissive or contemptuous like your post is. His humor is deadpan and dry, but never demeaning, because he struggles personally and doesn't reduce the internal struggles of others. You would do well to embrace the breadth of his virtues.

>The result of this for me is that I never talk about anything because women especially but also even my friends only want to talk about their vapid, stupid, irrational interests. So I have nothing to say, I fail to make conversation, and then everyone thinks I'm weird.
If you don't say anything, if you won't take charge and guide this discussion, what do you expect? Now if your "friends" are like metal shop guys that bark at each other like DMX and say you're a fag when you try to get intellectual, you need to get new friends. But if you're a typical 4chan avoidant/passive Howie poster, you need to steer things to where you're interested.

>Unfortunately my friends and finding a wife for procreation are both generally rational ends, so I still want them. The fuck do you do with that?

Mystery and aloofness and unreadability and stoicism are attractive to tons of women. A pretty girl who mugs and can't a spergo to laugh or make a smile feels challenged and intrigued, because basically any other men falls over himself to pretend she is funny. If you are properly confident in how you feel and warm to others and not emotionally leaky, even in a very dry Spocklike way, there is nothing about that that you can't use to get women. It's only being seething, unsafe, insecure etc. that repulses them.

>>33318709 (OP)
2 things:
1. You are hanging around losers. You should seek out more driven people if you can find them. Your friends probably won't stay your friends forever, you just happened to be around them in your youth. Outgrowing people is a normal part of maturing and there's nothing wrong with that. Go find your people.
2. Emotions may feel like a burden, but they exist for a reason. Mastering your emotions is a skill like any other. Your higher, logical brain cannot exist without a strong emotional foundation - if you are very sad, scared, needy, angry, hungry, horny, anxious, have to piss real bad, etc. it's extremely difficult to be logical, isn't it? Emotions exist to drive you towards your needs, they are our animalistic base. And we are animals at our core, never forget that. We aren't robots, nor should we seek to be robots, because it isn't what we are.

You rationally realize that contonuing slong this path is completely incompatible with friends and partners, and you consciously decide to reverse course as soon as possible.
Emotions are information from the lower parts of your brain. You need to learn how to properly respond to that information in a rational way, not discard it. Throwing away information is idiotic.
Get well soon. I wish someone had slapped me out of it earlier.