My husband never gets time off. I've hated where we live for years. It doesn't have the opportunities I want for my family in many ways, especially social. I would have had a lot of options elsewhere. He doesn't listen to my desires and needs. When I became a sahm I trusted him to care for me while I care for the kids. The sacrifice has been immeasurable.

He gets one week off per year and the only thing he did this week was suggest we go out to various fast food places. I have a literal disease that says I can't have fast food. The entire week off I literally just hoped he'd go back to work. I expected a vacation where I could get some rest for once. The only thing I was able to do was scroll Instagram seeing women who have much better lives than I do. And also political rage bait stuff that stresses me out. I hate the internet but I have nothing to do that is better than it. This is not even poverty. Its financial abuse.

If I go back to work, my plans for my kids are ruined. Plus the only field I'm qualified in is an absolute nightmare right now. I entered into a place that basically ruined my life and reputation in the area. I hate this area and abhor my life. The only thing good about my life is my children.

what advice do you need