I've never been able to commit myself to any hobby. I don't really have any hobbies other than laying in my room and sitting on my bed on my phone. The only thing I've ever been able to get good at is writing, and that's because I was convinced into it thanks to my parents wanting me to use it for school assignments. I've wanted to get into drawing, being creative, all this other stuff, but I can never make myself. I always end up giving up when it either gets too difficult, or some amount of time has passed. I don't know what else to do anymore. It's a hellish existence and I can't stand another minute of it. I'm 25 years old, and I don't want to live the next 75 years wasting away doing nothing, knowing that I could have done something if I didn't have this condition in the first place.

I'm just looking for any kind of reassurance or somehow some kind of strategy that makes living like this any more tolerable.

Howies second thread today