For friends/a relationship/meaning in life?
I was recently at this massive Anime convention and it was just four days of me walking around, wasting money and getting blackpilled repeatedly. I spent thousands to fly here for a week in hopes of finding something but failed. Is this all there is to life? Loneliness and emptiness and being undesirable?
>Male, 23
>5ft10
>Self ratings are unreliable, but I'm a virgin whos never been propositioned in this degenerate sex fueled society
>300lbs to 145lbs over years
>Poorly dressed to decent wardrobe after thousands spent.
>Meticulous skin care routine, hygiene, etc.
>Desk job, 80k salary (former neet, 136 IQ)
>[spoiler]Really lightskinned autistic nogroid[/spoiler]
I woke up one day five years ago after being bullied by a foid (again) at a psych ward and decided to change my life, but nothing's changed. I have nothing to live for. I don't know where to go from here without any community, everything's so difficult and I'm just tired. Would I be understood if I called it quits here?

>>33327014 (OP)
Yeah man I think people would get it if you killed yourself. There's probably a lot more stuff to try and I bet you could think up some schemes. But if that sounds too tiring sure whatever blow your brains out

Aaaand I fucked my one use of advanced formating. Really, truly, next level. Wonder if it was caused by improper spacing from the greater than argument.

[spoiler]UOHHHHHHHHHHHHH![/spoiler]

>>33327031
Going from zero to one person who cares as a male shouldn't have to be like early chapter Watamote. Thanks for the input, I feel a little better, now.

>went to a convention alone
based, but not a great plan
a con is a big event, so most attendees will make plans and stick with their group - you have better odds making friends outside the venue

congratulations on losing weight and getting a job and stuff tho

>>33327063
Yeah it shouldn't but it is so that sucks. I made a few friends doing stupid fucking plans and trying weird stuff and it was pretty fun. So yeah keep at it!
I can recommend you some courses of action if you want, though I can't promise they're palatable

>>33327131
How outrageous are we talking? You're not going to suggest I walk around downtown with a cardboard sign with one of the hot animemes and the words "looking 4 frens" are you?

just kill yourself loser

>>33327014 (OP)
No. Unless you become desirable, your life is going to be trash. Pretend like you know what your doing like the rest of us. Show no weakness. You might score and keep your weaknesses buried, if your lucky. Only glorify God when it benefits you.

>>33327257
No, no!
I mean if you haven't done the simple stuff already we start there and get a little more outrageous from there.
You know start with playing online video games with strong communities and voice chat features
Or learning to draw furry art to get attention in that community.
And then if that stuff can't get you any friends close enough you start performing weird schemes like putting yourself into intentional.... what would the platonic version of a meet-cute be? idk. Stuff like that.
Or playing a certain character to attract attention, even if that isn't exactly who you are. Since you're black you could probably just play into stereotypes and pick up some really shallow friends pretty quickly, though I wouldn't want to make shallow friends either.

>>33327306
Like a small example from my life is I made a pretty close friend I still have today by just always reading a cool niche book at work, and when customers would ask about it I would use it as a springboard to get autistic about the book and if they jived with that I would see if we could chat or hang out and since most people with the same interests as me are also kinda lonely (not to mention people in general in America being pretty friendly) it worked out eventually

>>33327014 (OP)
Did youi talk to anyone in those four days?

>>33328472
I had a passing conversation with some people who liked a shirt I have with the words "Autistic Virgin" on it. Fan gear from the Youtuber Neo Punk FM's shop. Another day, I spoke with someone while waiting in line for a ticketed show. Nothing really happened, though. You either force the conversation and scare them off or it just fizzles and they go back to their pre existing friends.

if you were going to Anime Expo you should have got on /cgl/ and went to the meetups there, people are pretty inclusive and there is even a disc server that people have gone to over the years. I don't go anymore because its out of state + I'm more or less aged out + don't have people to go with anymore, but it was certainly a good fun time.

For what it's worth I don't think it is easy to make new friends/relationships at a convention all the time. One like AX (assuming you went to that one specifically) is huge and doesn't have the same type of "chill/personable" atmosphere that others do. But in the future I would look around on here if it's a big convention and see if you can meet people to hang out with through that.

I think you have a lot of potential but need to continue making efforts to being more social. That involves more than just showing up to the events, you have to actively put yourself out there with hanging out and talking with others. I know this is all much MUCH easier said than done, i struggle with the same shit, but I have faith you'll make it.

>>33328576
>You either force the conversation
What you call forcing the conversation is what everyone else calls keeping it going.

>>33327014 (OP)
https://youtu.be/lqZehFAwoTM?t=32

It's over as soon as you turn 18 and leave the school system without a well established social circle. You go to work, but you won't make any friends, just coworkers. You join a sports club, same deal. It's over, because everyone already has their social circles locked in since childhood. You'll be nothing more than a coworker, destined to be alone for life. Social life and relationships are like trains you have to catch at the quay, a race against time that takes place during adolescence. And by extension, logically of course, no social life and no women.
But normies don't understand this because they are clueless normies who think you can walk into a bar full of strangers and magically form a social life like in The Sims. Only women can start from scratch and create a social life and get a boyfriend from scratch because of their status as women.

Whether you're 23 or 43 it doesn't change anything, maybe for the normies, but for you and me Chud, a year is like any other, the sands of time flowing towards nothingness, nothing more.. nothing less.

>>33328609
Never browsed that board, I figured it would just be guys thirsting over anything with a vagina, usual buisiness yes, but with 3DPD instead. I'll check it out if there's a next con.

I still have some ideas, I just felt pretty bad when I made OP. Maybe I get a nosejob and wear a wig instead of 4C steel woolmaxxing.

>>33328613
But they'd keep the conversation going themselves if they were interested, no? If you find yourself constantly having to uncork new directions to take a conversation and it feels like work, I think they're just not that interested. Going any further runs the risk of ruining everything and I've done that countless times through childhood.

>>33328683
it actually has a lot more women than men on that board to be honest. I won't say that people dont simp there but its not anywhere close to the level you'd expect it to be. I met some cool bros there, and I hope in due time you do too.
>Maybe I get a nosejob and wear a wig instead of 4C steel woolmaxxing.
don't be doing some basic bitch cosplay effort, go all out. the board will teach you how to.

>>33327014 (OP)
ur good anon I want to go to a anime convention to make friends but im too socially anxious to go