should you write a suicide note / farewell letter to someone who you were best friends with but ruined it, and have since healed and moved on? or is it better to just do it and have them find out on their own with no explanation? you don't want to cause them pain and don't want them to think it's because of anything they had done or could've done, you just really have too many issues in life and can't keep going emotionally or mentally. and how can I make it so my family understands why I chose to do it and why it's better for everyone? i'm special needs, can't manage to be independent, i tried a lot of things and the older I get the harder things get and I'm too developmentally fucked to catch up or make anything just good enough. I don't find life worth it anymore, I have tried to give it a chance since I was a kid and by now I am aware there's not much I can do and have grown to hate myself and life has gotten so hard and bad that you can't even stay alive for the sake of people you love and you don't care if the suicide method is painful or not, you just want out of this nightmare