I have a suspicion that everyone thinks I’m repulsive to look at because of my skin and ethnicity and it’s driving me mad. I’m latino but really, really, brown because my dad is. Ever since I was a kid I’ve been teased by my cousins and classmates in school about it and I think that contributed to my low self esteem. This teasing went away by the time I was older, but I can’t help but escape the feeling that people see me and think the same things they did when I was younger (just really mean punchlines about skin color from latinos and non-latinos, literally called “mexican boy” in elementary school). My brother is normal lightskinned and I talked to him about it, (while he apologized he never got teased to the extent that I did and gets more attention from people than I ever really will). I’ve tried my best to assimilate. I can’t speak spanish or really understand it but I can read it, I don’t have an accent. I’m just afraid this isn’t enough, like people just see me as a disgusting ethnic based on features I can’t change.