Another breakup for me.
Idk what to do sincerely I feel like every relationship is the same and that the girls I'm with will always have the same flaws and that I'll keep making the same mistakes. I don't see a way out, each time I'm told I'm cold, don't give any affection etc...
I feel like my life is overall at a dead end, there's no evolution whatsoever. I just have now those awful memories of previous relationship where I seemed happy and each new memory worsen the present for me.
Idk even what to ask as advice I just don't have anybody to say any of this shit.

I feel that

>>33329256
Idk about you but I feel that the worst part is that I'm in the wrong and so are they, but I don't see any solution for either of us, even in the longterm.
I'm just tired at this point, going to drink.

>>33329300
Yeah, both parties are usually in the wrong in these cases. I'm going through the same thing too. I'm gonna go drink too :p

>anoooon, can you kiss me and ask how i'm doing :3
>hmm... no
>ok. i'm leaving :(
>how could this happen? life is suffering
Just fucking do it or get institutionalized for toddler level self sabotage

>>33329318
Yeah I'm a retard and I can't fix it

>>33329307
Enjoy, tell me if you wanna talk too
Idk what I can do but yeah

>>33329228 (OP)

I thought i had my first actual real and loving boyfriend. He ripped my heart out, stomped on it and laughed in my face while he held another chicks hand.

The guy I liked (for years) before that, never talked to me, ignored me and wasnt interested in staying with me.

First date with guy A was literally just margs and chips to discuss how much I was into guy B. Guy B showed no interest in me and guy A wanted to do everything with me.

I give up ever thinking of any guy ever again and will never date / reach out or try to be friendly with anyone ever again.

I think most people either crave intellectual and emotional connection and see intimacy as a plus or they crave physical connection and have no intention of trying to 'know' a person, but please let me know if im wrong. I have obv been used as a toy and am now hurt.

My perception of romance and relationships has been ruined.
End rant.

>>33329809
Also never coming back to chan again. I usually come to get whatever is bothering me off my chest and heal but I dont think chan is helping me or making me feel better.

Imma find a hobby and try to enjoy life (which is difficult rn).

>>33329228 (OP)
Try to find like an anime or media that helps evoke these feelings in you