I go through this odd vicious cycle that I struggle to narrow down on the cause of and ways to prevent or at least fight / lessen it
Basically when I am in a good mental state, I act normally. Nothing really of note, not overly energetic or ambitious, etc like with bipolar II or something, maybe a tiny bit but mostly due to the rebound after I hit a downturn if that makes sense
But basically I'm normal, view things positively, want to do and achieve things, am happy, etc etc blah blah blah

For no real reason, not overly stressed, not juggling 50 things or setting up false expectations, etc - I just 180
Completely 180
I do not want to do things, I view things negatively or cynically, nothing really matters, nothing is fun, and I do have willpower to try to do things, but they're not enjoyable
I do not believe it can be solved just by forcing myself or maybe I haven't tried it hard enough?
I don't really know what causes this 180, but this last one lasted 5 weeks
Now I'm good again
Who knows when I'll turn back
It feels like I'm wasting 50% or more of my life just being unable to do things, or rather, enjoy or want to do things
Anyone ever suffer from something similar or hear of similar cases?

Imma let this ride while I sleep

No one controls their minds cycle

>>33332039
I don’t wanna be cursed like this it’s legit only enjoying life like 30-50% of the time

Bumping this for some actual discussion

>>33329868 (OP)
Can you be more specific? Not sure what ur blabbering on about mate

>>33329868 (OP)
That seems like type I bipolar disorder.

>>33329868 (OP)
Bipolar can be medicated. For anything else there's CBT, NLP, 12 step programs, religion. Brain maturation if you're young.