Anonymous
7/8/2025, 3:59:58 AM No.33331219
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>be born
>family all hate each other, bullied often for being fat
>finally get over it and start really making friends
>family moves countries 2500km away
>no friends, no language, nothing
>grit my teeth and try my best with everything
>make friends, adapt, move through school system
>mother dies
>hardest period of school starts now
>graduate with fine grades, and 0% of my class liking me even remotely
>dont attend ball
>go to uni and drop out, not for me at all
>okay thats life, go for apprenticeship instead
>get the job, going well, liked
>meet a girl i truly do love so much
>start training mma, makes me confident, happy
>severe sciatica appears, thats okay, just train less and feel fat, better than hellscape backpain
>still, things are looking up, visits, people like me more
>can hardly keep up with everyone and everything, but feel like im actually going somewhere
>first half of 2025 feels like actual boiling tar everywhere on my skin
>but atleast its almost vacation, we can relax have fun and refocus
>gf leaves me literally less than 24 hours before the trip
>devastated but theres nothing to do
>decide to go on the trip anyway because its all booked and paid for anyway, fuck it
>actually kinda nice sometimes, listen to music, lie in grass, read books and smoke
>rains.
when i told my friend about what happened, he said God has a plan for everyone. But if I lay it all out like this, I cant say i see it. whats the plan here? lets see how much this guy can take still? how much more will he put up with before killing himself? what IS the plan?? and Jesus, can I have a break from these plans? can i actually hold something in my hands and not have it melt into sand? and i know its partly my own behaviour and choices that lead to this but. can i have SOMETHING to hold?
what can i do to not let this get to me?
>be born
>family all hate each other, bullied often for being fat
>finally get over it and start really making friends
>family moves countries 2500km away
>no friends, no language, nothing
>grit my teeth and try my best with everything
>make friends, adapt, move through school system
>mother dies
>hardest period of school starts now
>graduate with fine grades, and 0% of my class liking me even remotely
>dont attend ball
>go to uni and drop out, not for me at all
>okay thats life, go for apprenticeship instead
>get the job, going well, liked
>meet a girl i truly do love so much
>start training mma, makes me confident, happy
>severe sciatica appears, thats okay, just train less and feel fat, better than hellscape backpain
>still, things are looking up, visits, people like me more
>can hardly keep up with everyone and everything, but feel like im actually going somewhere
>first half of 2025 feels like actual boiling tar everywhere on my skin
>but atleast its almost vacation, we can relax have fun and refocus
>gf leaves me literally less than 24 hours before the trip
>devastated but theres nothing to do
>decide to go on the trip anyway because its all booked and paid for anyway, fuck it
>actually kinda nice sometimes, listen to music, lie in grass, read books and smoke
>rains.
when i told my friend about what happened, he said God has a plan for everyone. But if I lay it all out like this, I cant say i see it. whats the plan here? lets see how much this guy can take still? how much more will he put up with before killing himself? what IS the plan?? and Jesus, can I have a break from these plans? can i actually hold something in my hands and not have it melt into sand? and i know its partly my own behaviour and choices that lead to this but. can i have SOMETHING to hold?
what can i do to not let this get to me?
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