Why does masturbation now feel like I'm raping myself? I can no longer experience release the tension keeps growing and growing.
I forsee bad things happening to me

>>33331617 (OP)
Have you tried changing what you think about during like instead of watching porn go without or use it to get started then let your mind take you

>>33331617 (OP)
Something something Anima, Madonna-Whore-complex, civilizational sublimation of the male sex drive, Internalization of man, lack of erotic target