Would be if a was a millionaire right? So i could not work, be alone and confortable somewhere. If there's no way i can achieve that, death seems logical.

Life demands connections, love, responsability and expectations, i'm not able to offer those things nor am i willing to change, therefore death is the way out, right?

>>33334387 (OP)
https://youtu.be/4lmW2tZP2kU?si=j-eUZ3IG7cVc49J_

>>33334400
But i need a house somewhere, cut all the people that love me, and enough to buy minimal food and do nothing for the rest of my existance. Not possible without a job

>>33334510
Come on dude do you really think you'll be happy doing that? Just leech off family members

>>33334517
I already do, was a happy leech, eventually my parents divorced so we had to move from the old house, moved a couple times actually.

Now i live at my grandma's backyard with my dad, literally two bedrooms next to each other and a mini kitchen, i wake up with the damn freezer opening every day. My mom lives in a different state, i'm supposed to visit her at some point but i know i'll never do, Grandma is old and has an autistic son, my dad will have to take care of him eventually with his sister. I just know that from this point on life will demand things i don''t have in me, and i'm tired of the agony and anxiety of knowing that. Someone gets sick and need go hospital? Can't do that, someone dies and need a conforting word? I have nothing to say. Maybe send a message asking how mom is doing? No, nothing to say again. I'm not compatible with this world. Thanks for replying though

>>33334593
Holy shit I've been feeling this exact same way too. I've been living on the second floor of my parents house (which is like a small apartment with a kitchen and bathroom) since I was 18 and now that i'm 22 they're starting to put the pressure on me to move out and get a full time job.

They think i'm depressed when these last few years have been amazingly relaxing and comfy I'm just naturally not a very ambitious person at all. Idk what i'm gonna do when inevitably i"ll have to "grow up" and actually sustain myself and have no free time...

>>33334387 (OP)
Some old folks die alone in commie blocks in europe. Though you obviously see people at the doctors and during shopping, but you are basically alone

>>33334664
Yeah, same for me.I just hate this feeling of been relied on, or expected to in the future, when i know what i am...Work is probably hell because this feeling probably remanins, but as you said no free time and no peace.

>>33334780
Seems decent enough