I am either too depressed to do anything, care about anything, super cynical and just feel like everything is pointless - therefore have zero interest in doing anything
Or I am energized and good but cannot focus on doing anything, mind makes me start one thing and start another within minutes, constantly refreshing tabs, checking sites refreshing sites, checking my phone, opening games and closing them before they fully launch - basically everything except what i wanna do - then i get annoyed so i do nothing

either get nothing done, or i get nothing done
months on end, ever since i started a job
had a random 3 week period of respite from this out of the last 8 months with zero to show for it, barely even have memories anymore, just fog and time moving too quickly

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