im nearly 21 and since i was around 15 have been dedicated to becoming ready to become a proper person. i spent most of my life bullied for my personality/looks or ignored so i cast off any hope of ever having a social life, boyfriend, being pretty or getting a job.
i don't know why i had hope but this time almost 5 years ago i thought i shouldn't waste my life content with being forgotten and should still try. i've gone from having no idea of personal hygiene to taking care of my skin, learning to do makeup and buying outfits and actually got a job but i'm still lagging behind and haven't even attempted anything socially yet. i'm diagnosed autistic and can't talk to anyone without clamming up, makeup/style can't change bad facial features and when i do take myself seriously i feel like a retard playing dressup, it's feels wrong on me.
my sister is 23 and because all of her friends are settling down, even some people from my old classes are already buying houses, having serious careers and having kids. i wanted to make the most of my 'youth' whatever that entailed but i think if i'm still at this position at 21 there's no reason in trying anymore, would you say it's too late? people say it's never too late to start all the time but i think there comes a point where it's obvious that i'm out of my depth trying to force myself into a lifestyle when naturally i am autistic, socially embarrassing and unattractive and there's only so much someone like that can do. it's just hard to accept at times.

>>33339040 (OP)
https://youtu.be/lqZehFAwoTM?t=32

It's over as soon as you turn 18 and leave the school system without a well established social circle. You go to work, but you won't make any friends, just coworkers. You join a sports club, same deal. It's over, because everyone already has their social circles locked in since childhood. You'll be nothing more than a coworker, destined to be alone for life. Social life and relationships are like trains you have to catch at the quay, a race against time that takes place during adolescence. And by extension, logically of course, no social life and no women.
But normies don't understand this because they are clueless normies who think you can walk into a bar full of strangers and magically form a social life like in The Sims. Only women can start from scratch and create a social life and get a boyfriend from scratch because of their status as women.

Whether you're 21 or 41 it doesn't change anything, maybe for the normies, but for you and me Chud, a year is like any other, the sands of time flowing towards nothingness, nothing more.. nothing less.

>>33339202
i worried that this was the truth but if its taken me so long to get ready to be a normal person then it wouldn’t come at all.
>But normies don't understand this because they are clueless normies who think you can walk into a bar full of strangers and magically form a social life like in The Sims.
yes, if i were to ask this question anywhere else nobody would be able to comprehend how screwed some people can be in this regard and would spout nonsense how everyone could become a real person because they don’t understand.
>Only women can start from scratch and create a social life and get a boyfriend from scratch because of their status as women.
well no here’s where i disagree because i am female (biological, not a troon). this assumes that all women have some value in there looks but that’s not true. maybe because ‘femcels’ are generally attractive larpers but there are women who are genuinely unattractive and hopeless personality-wise and men seem to be far more driven by looks than personality (as are women). if they catch a whiff that you’re a bit different like autistic then they’re as vicious as other girls. look at bella ramsey, she is an ugly woman and she’s hated even outside of her work on tlou so it’s not just because she doesn’t fit the role. genuinely ugly and socially inept women and quirky femcels are two different leagues. and there’s the worry about aging too.

>>33339669
*value in their looks
also i’m not claiming that ugly and awkward women have it as bad as incels since i think being female will always have more people treat you gently solely because you are the ‘fairer’ sex, smaller, typically more sensitive. but this assumption that every woman can just up and turn things around i don’t agree with.

>>33339669
Sexual status resembles employment status. If you're a jobless loser and try to find a job nobody wants your ass.

But if you already have a job and go on exploratory interviews and make it clear that you love your job and would only consider being lured away for a 10% raise because you feel you could handle more important responsibilities, everyone wants to hire you.

Same thing with women. If you aren’t getting any, you give off defeated loser vibes and women look at you and assume the reason you have no woman is because you aren’t good enough for one.

GL GETTING OUT OF THIS LOOP BY LIFTING WEIGHTS AND DOING RANDOM SHIT

tldr; the game is rigged

>>33339040 (OP)
Didn’t read all of it, but yes anon, it is indeed over for you.

>>33339824
i don’t think you read what i wrote
>>33339902
shame, thanks anyway

>>33339669
>men seem to be far more driven by looks than personality
Change your enviroment, and the people you set your eyes on too

>>33340330
i’ve never had eyes for any man though. i know you’re assuming i’m going for 8/10s out of my league but i’ve never been approached by anyone or had eyes for any man i knew i had no chance. so the only men i’ve ever set my eyes on have been fictional. i’ve never had an environment either because i was either alone in the corner as a teenager or now i don’t leave my house except to work.

>>33340221
What I wrote is more important than what you wrote woman.

>>33339040 (OP)
Who TF is buying houses and having kids in their early twenties? That happens in the thirties nowadays.

>>33340382
you didn’t even read it retard
>>33340388
my sister and her bf work average jobs and are looking toward moving out and buying an apartment while their richer friends are looking for houses. girls in my class have been getting pregnant since we finished school if their instagrams are anything to go by.

>>33339040 (OP)
Just go out more LOL
That way you'll simply get used to it :-)

>>33339040 (OP)
I won't read too much preamble threads. Get to the point next time.

>>33340962
sorry i didn’t know what to emit