I can never come back to the same task more than twice. I can't study for more than a week. I've tried everything under the sun to motivate and stimulate myself more: meds, therapy, self-therapy, meditations, group support, socialization, deprivation from gadgets, changing everything slowly. Every time I come to the day when I can't get up, literally. I can't do anything meaningful in my life, and it's killing me. And the more I look for advice, the more useless it seems.
I'm not that stupid to be such a fucking loser. I'm always exhausted, and I sleep for many hours. For the last year, I couldn't even do anything more than 4 hours because it drains me out completely.
I've abandoned other communities and have nobody to ask because they all (freinds, doctors, therapists etc) are fucking useless. I can't live in this hell anymore.

>>33339798 (OP)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7av9krAJQ8g&list=RD7av9krAJQ8g&start_radio=1

>>33339870
I need more than that

>>33339798 (OP)
I won't read self-inflicted problems threads (attention-span destroying activity).

>>33339798 (OP)
that's not true though! you come back to posting variations of this thread over and over for months like clockwork

>>33339798 (OP)
It’s hard to do self directed activity.

Jobs and School force you to do shit you don’t want to do.

>>33341782
It wasn't me
>>33341958
But I had to be better in it with time, no? Why everything such a struggle?

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