Been suffering alot due to my chronic depression, can't even get out of my room. Stopped talking with my closed ones, even people I love with. Ghosted every friend I had cause I don't have the energy to continue a conversation.
Thought it was better to push all relations away as I was planning to end it soon(even attempted but no one knows).
Now whenever I face them, no one even dares to look me in the eye, I have become invisible. Ik it's all my fault but what now? If only the attempt had been successful...

>>33340106 (OP)
Just tell them how you were feeling and why you did it and that you're sorry if it hurt their feelings, that wasn't your intention though you do realize now that it was selfish. I've done the same shit.

>>33340106 (OP)
Know the difference between rational anger & irrational anger (my hands are ugly, i hate rainy days, if only I could go back in time, etc.)

30 years of therapy and no "professional" ever said it to me in this way...

anger needs oxygen

PS- to hell with jesus! he can do as much as you can afford . Listen, imaginary friends have helped me out of a deep, dark pit (see pic)

PSS- It is never your fault if you were uneducated about the circumstances that led to where you are now (ie. Severe Depression)

>>33340112
Agree with this

>>33340159
>to hell with jesus!
Hmm...

>>33340112
How long and how close was your relationship with them? I guess i fucked up since i was never honest about my problems. I was too much of a paranoid mess to allow myself to be vulnerable talking about my life.

I still regret burning SOME bridges, but i cant say if i'm saying this because i really miss them or loneliness is rotting my brain

>>33340106 (OP)
"Hi. I'm sorry I've been a pretty shitty friend for a while. I was going through some personal stuff and just not fun to be with. I'm out of it now and hope we can pick up where we left off."

Everyone can understand that and everyone worthwhile will forgive and welcome you back.

>>33342806
A lot of bridges can be unburned if the person genuinely cares about you enough. It's worth trying, and learning to be more vulnerable in the future. Not telling people things and vanishing causes more hassle than telling people things.

>>33340106 (OP)
They don't care for you. If they did you wouldn't push them away and they would still be happy to see you can not be scared to look you in the eyes. You pushed them away because you know they don't care for you and are causing you pain. What do you have to apologize for? That the world is shit and that vale of everything is fine is gone? Why do you think that is? You might not be perfect but I really doubt you are going out of your way to make yourself miserable. You don't have control over everything and the world made it very clear that you don't desver any reward or love for whatever reason.

Hell, what did they even do to help you? They knew something was up, did they even bother reaching out? And if they did was it actual reaching out or just telling you to be happy bro and take a walk while listening to happy music?

Friends and family are supposed to help you but the real truth is you aren't supposed to faulter no matter what. They are getting rid of you because you are a burden to them and they don't care about your feelings. You no longer benefit them so leave.

>>33340106 (OP)
Read "The Power of Positive Thinking" by Norman Vincent Peale

>>33343159
This. They'll just get it in their heads that you where always awful anyways it doesn't really matter. Life is always two seconds away from being dropped by even the closest people to you.