idk, everything feels so bad. every day feels the same. im living this monotone life, like im stuck in a loop. i feel like everyone around me hates me, including my own friends. i dont have the motivation to get out of my house. i dont feel like doing anything. i feel insecure about myself. i get compliments from guys from time to time, but i still dont feel comfortable in my own skin. i feel like relapsing, but ive been clean for a while n i just dont know what to do anymore