>>33344241 (OP)>I didn’t go through any childhood trauma. Maybe not in a *traditional* sense.
>I have and revert to being a sensitive kid again who just wants to be cuddled by my mum or play again. Perhaps there's part of the childhood experience that you missed out on?
> I work but don’t have any friends or do anything adult so I haven’t grown up muchIt sounds like you lacked the full childhood experience with friends, so being in that energy or frame of mind is more comfortable than being an adult. You basically say so yourself.
What you need to do is force yourself into adult situations. You need to do things which take you out of the house where you wallow in doing whatever it is you currently do.
>I’m a huge spergThis is probably the root of it and should be your main focus. You need to determine a few things:
*What exactly is the regression holding me back from and what is my goal, past stopping the regressive thoughts?
*Why am I this way?
*Is being this way a good or bad thing?
*If bad, imagine: "would a former sperg who moved forward say they did to get to reach the goals I have?"
*If good, imagine: "what would a sperg who's successful in life be doing to reach the goals I have?"
Note, I'm separating the sperg thing from the regression. I don't really know what a sperg is, but it's likely just a false view you have of yourself and how you characterize being a little bit different than "normal" people, whatever "normal" even means. That's why you need to determine if it's truly a good or bad thing. Is it bad to be different, or are you really just overthinking and projecting a negative view on yourself for no good reason?
I will also say: you need to eat healthily, get fresh air, and be a bit active, even if it's just exercising at home. With focused thought and a dedication to searching within yourself, you will definitely find the answers. You do not need a therapist. You just need to learn yourself. All of the answers are inside you.