Anonymous
7/11/2025, 12:35:28 AM No.33345094
So to cut to the chase, I’ve been isolated and what I’d call lonely for about 6 years (only talk with family out of obligation and average going out with a couple people maybe once every two months). I’ve started thinking about what I want out of relationships with others and what changes I want to see in my life, but despite opening up to the few people in my life, going out more, accepting myself more, I genuinely feel nothing towards others. I believe my family really does love me, yet I don’t feel anything strongly towards them. I go out to crowded areas to see people interact, but nothing – no envy, no desire to have the relationships they have, no desire to join in, no happiness for them – so is that normal? When I look at people I don’t think I really see them as people or even living things, more like objects I guess. When I talk to cashiers or family members it doesn’t really feel like there’s anything beyond something with predetermined responses in front of me. Maybe I've been alone with my own perspective for too long, but shouldn’t human connects have some kind of strong feeling to them? I feel like I should have some kind of natural empathy or respect for others, but I just don’t. I recently spilled everything I felt and thought was wrong with me to someone I know (I’m not particularly close with him, but I’m not with anyone) and I thought maybe I’d start crying or feel some kind of relief, but again, nothing – it felt like talking about the weather. I’ve noticed this kind of apathy in all aspects of my life and it’s why I am focusing on changing my situation like I mentioned above. Is it just me getting older and more apathetic? Maybe I’ve just been alone without any real relationships for too long? If anyone is in a similar situation or has an idea on this I’d love to hear what you have to say.
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