here I am, yet again, on this goddamn board feeling sorry for myself.

I really would like to not go to work tomorrow or my families' birthday celebration later in the day. not only do I not have everything ready, I just feel like an absolute utter terrible loser.
but missing things will just get people (even more) worried about me. I already asked to not work tonight because I was feeling awful today, and doing the same thing tomorrow... man I'm just going to look like this other girl at work who takes off whenever she feels like it.

I really don't know what to do, I just want to collapse in on myself and have everyone magically forget I don't exist for a while. I just fucking hate myself bro.

>>33346087 (OP)
>I really don't know what to do
you have to encourage yourself in the Lord. I will tell you about David.

David was a shepherd of sheep. then he was anointed by God to be the king of Israel. and David had an army. with his army, he fought his enemies. one day his enemies kidnapped the wives and children of his army. because of this, the men of David's army wanted to kill him:

>David was greatly distressed because the men were talking of stoning him; each one was bitter in spirit because of his sons and daughters. But David found strength in the Lord his God. 1 Samuel 30:6.

sometimes our problems are physical. for example, you are tired:
>I just want to collapse in on myself

and sometimes our problems are spiritual. for example, you are discouraged:
>I just fucking hate myself bro.

rest and a healthy diet can fix physical fatigue. but what about the spirit?
>The human spirit can endure in sickness, but a crushed spirit who can bear? Proverbs 18:14.

your spirit is crushed, hence:
>here I am, yet again, on this goddamn board feeling sorry for myself.

encourage yourself in the Lord:

>just feeling real low again
Here is David testifying how God saved him from feeling low:
>But you, Lord, are a shield around me, my glory, the One who lifts my head high. Psalm 3:3.
>He reached down from on high and took hold of me; he drew me out of deep waters. Psalm 18:16.
>He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. Psalm 40:2.

>I just feel like an absolute utter terrible loser.
God will strengthen you, if you believe in him:
>I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. Philippians 4:13.

>I just fucking hate myself bro.
God loves you:
>But God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8.

encourage yourself in the Lord.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sndvVwIpMgU

>>33346087 (OP)
Schedule35 Google it. Also follow the five Nevers:
1. Never envy
2. Never regret
3. Never let others doubt affect you
4. Never doubt yourself
5. Never forget what you love most
Hope this helped anon