How do I stop feeling like I'm contaminating everyone I enter a relationship with?

>>33348379 (OP)
>contaminating everyone
meaning what, exactly?

>>33348403
I feel like an unnatural force that shouldn't have been born, but by some twisted fate I'm here and continue to indulge in a life that shouldn't exist, wasn't made for me. Every word, touch, acknowledgement feels wrong, I feel like I'm in a completely different class to everybody else. It feels like everyone would be happier without me fucking everything up, even if I'm technically not doing anything wrong.

>>33348416
let's start with this statement:
>I feel like an unnatural force that shouldn't have been born
you already understand feelings do not always represent the truth. and if feelings cannot be trusted as the truth, from where do we obtain truth?

for disciples of jesus christ, of which I am, we trust that the truth is the word of God.

here is what your feelings say:
>I feel like an unnatural force that shouldn't have been born

here is what the word of God says:
>O Lord... I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well... Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, God!

by trusting in the word of God, I believe:
>I am fearfully and wonderfully made
>God ordained all my days in his book before I was born

beliefs influence feelings. therefore the solution to your problem is, you have to change you beliefs to change you feelings.

how do you do this? I already showed you. I will show you again, with your second statement:

your feelings:
>by some twisted fate I'm here and continue to indulge in a life that shouldn't exist, wasn't made for me.
the word of God:
>For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

believe the truth about who you are, then your feelings will change.
now I will ask you: from where do you obtain truth?
and now I will say: jesus christ is the way and the truth and the life. know the truth, and the truth will set you free.

your feelings:
>Every word, touch, acknowledgement feels wrong
the word of God:
>There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.

It depends if you are actually doing it like having manipulative or abusive mental illnesses that ruin the other person or if it's just low confidence

If it's the first you will likely always be like this (genetic mental condition) with management that keeps it mostly at bay in the absolute best case scenario. If you want to not feel bad about it get into a relationship with someone just as unwell as you are

If it's low confidence literally just stop, no one cares about your hangups if you're not doing anything wrong like you said. In fact you're making it worse for the other person by being stuck on it. They wouldn't be with you if they didn't like you to begin with if that's your concern

forgive yourself

kill yourself