I was at mental health today.

I explained that i progressed from poverty to 6 figures, not even counting what i pull in in passive income from investments.

I mentioned how amicable i am, and how many friends, and close friends i have.

But the thing is, i dont enjoy doing ANYTHING. The only thing i want is a girlfriend. In my current environment, its 85/15 for a gender ratio. Odds arent in my favor.

Mental health said that i shouldnt only want a girlfriend, relationships like that dont work. I need to be happy on my own. But im not. Even with friends, money, etc. Its not fot me. And mental health said trying to fulfill 100% of my emotional needs via a girlfriends unrealistic.

Also im 5'6. Quite cute, boyish looks, friends always like me too.

But what now? I have money, doesnt make a difference. I have everything but a girlfriend. Itd be the only thing to make a difference in my life, and its the only thing i want.

I explained how reserved i am with attempting to interact with girls i intend to date, and described one instance of me talking to a girl for a week. I didnt reeally expand upon too much being short and how that prevents it from falling into my lap too.

>>33350204 (OP)
Sorry to break it to you, but what your therapist told you is right. You will never be happy with a girlfriend if you can't already be happy on your own.
It's not even about being all butterflies and rainbows 24/7. It's more about being at peace with yourself and who you are without sulking about it. Enjoying life on your own so to speak.

You think getting a girlfriend will make you happy, and it probably will at first if you do get one. But in the end your own demons will just catch up to you and bring you down whether you have a girlfriend or not.

You mentioned you progressed from poverty to 6 figures so you clearly know that you're deserving of that. Can't be said for everyone.

And imho you don't enjoy anything because you haven't discovered enough yet.

Basically just focus on yourself first.

>>33350229
My therapist said the same thing. I just havent discovered something i liked. My brother said that too, hes been telling me to get into motorcycles.

I dont know. I feel like id give them space, id definitely be extremely clingy especially since theyd be the only person or badically thing in my life that i care about. Inhave preferences regarding it too, but they arent hard preferences at all, preferences like id hope shed understand pyschology and could teach me how to unserstand myself, and another preference being that id hope shed, the hypthetical girl would like me devoting all of my non work energy to her, even if i understand id have to give her space or time because obviously im a bit of an oddball in which i perceivably wouldnt be able to enjoy anything else other than her company.

>>33350204 (OP)
>i want is a girlfriend
no, girlffriends are over rated. Just use official prostitutes, high quality ones, all women are prostitutes anyway (you pay one way or another). As soon as you blow your load you want to something else anyway and leave.

>>33350204 (OP)
>Cute boyish
>Lots money
>Tabula Rasa
I'll be ur gf and Ur hobby
Warning, extreeeeeeme hobby incoming

>>33350204 (OP)
Sounds like you lack purpose and direction. You have the life you wanted, and it's empty. You have distractions but no passions. You probably followed the direction of profitability and not fulfillment because poverty taught you to do so in order to dig out of it. It's not about what's going to bring you momentary joy, that's fleeting and cheap, it's about finding something bigger than yourself that you think is important, making the sacrifices in your own life be they financial, interpersonal, or time to follow it, and pouring yourself into that thing. It might not be profitable, it might bring you all the way back down to where you started, it might cost you friendships and opportunities, but if it's something that you can wake up to do every day and know it's important, you'll be fulfilled, and the rest will come. Just like you've chased the life you were told was good, followed the program others set for you, a girlfriend is yet another thing you're being sold as a "sure way to have a good life". If only you had money, it'd be good. If only you owned a home, you'd feel proud. If only you had a wife and kids, it would be complete. None of those things bring happiness in and of themselves anon, nothing will, and even the person who you think has it all better than you do feels the same way if he hasn't found something truly important to him. You're not having a mental health crisis, you're having a crisis of the soul. Your pockets and belly are full, your needs are taken care of, yet your soul is starving for meaning and purpose, and none of those ephemeral, surface-level things are sufficient replacement to nourish it. Money will come and go. Careers can be started, changed and ended. Relationships may make you happy for awhile, and then make you feel lower than you were before. Everything in life can be taken from you, but purpose. Purpose, something you could live or even die for, that cannot be taken. Find it, and find peace.