I have heart problems that prevent me from playing sports or finding jobs that require even a minimal amount of physical effort. I really hate God so much that all I can think about is committing suicide. What's the point of living if I'm a damn disabled person?

>>33351440 (OP)

I don't know how I can reply to this because I haven't experienced the pain you have.

I can't tell you it gets better over time, or that everything will be okay. I can't tell you the point of living, or what your will to live should be.

I'm sorry about your condition though, I can't imagine how it must feel to be in immense physical and emotional pain everyday, unable to do basic things.

I'm not encouraging you to commit suicide, but I can't stop you, because ultimately it is your decision, and you have the right to decide how you die. I hope you don't though, and things work out in the end, and you can do all those things that you really wanted to do.

Like playing sports, or finding a job, or finding someone you really like, and settling down with them, and living to an old age, and have grandkids and stuff.

Sending much love to you, I wish you the best, and I hope your suffering is put to an end. <3

>>33351440 (OP)
If you get scared, or anxious, would you die?

>>33351440 (OP)
Do you get disability? you can literally pursue knowledge. im almost jealous unironically.
>>33351457
exactly

>>33351511
It would be extremely painful

>>33351476
thank you for your words

>>33351511
No, I won't die from that.

>>33351534
Why do you want to have heart problems? You won't be able to play sports and you'll be unfit for almost all jobs. Although yes, I like to read and educate myself, both in the humanities and the natural sciences, and in practical subjects like carpentry, mechanics, and plumbing.

>>33351440 (OP)
Same boat as you OP. Not heart problems but a lot of health problems that have prevented me from living a normal life.

I don’t know the answer. I’m struggling with thoughts of suicide too. I pray to Jesus and go to Church, and that helps somewhat, but I’m still jealous of quote unquote “normal people.”

The best I can say would be making art or writing books or screenplays. As for a job, you need something white collar. Maybe to go college or something.

>>33352435
You're a crippled guy

>>33352997
I said almost. Also anon, I've ran full speed probably less than 10 times since I graduated high school.

>>33353387
For you

>>33353404
But I like to play sports, the damn god denied it to me.

>>33351440 (OP)
Man I feel you OP. I don’t have heath problems but I have arthritis at 25, and it killed all my hobbies. Can’t drive. Can’t do any sports
I seethe in my room all day. I hate it so fucking much

>>33353048
Praying is useless, God hates us or doesn't exist, for my part I've already written my suicide letter

>>33355319
The world is a piece of shit, unfair, I couldn't hate God for creating this shit.