>>33352232>he left when she became pregnant I know. I asked you about father because I already knew he was gone. If he was around, you'd not have been devoured by the emotional incest that your mother drowned you in. You are in this predicament precisely because father fucked off.
Your mother instead burdened you, her own child, with adult-sized emotional problems. She did that because she has no husband to attend to her emotionally. And so she emotionally cannibalised you, by putting unnecessary emotional weight onto you growing up.
You normalised that, and you developed sexually like any other male. And what humans do when they seek sexual relations, is they automatically seek the most familiar emotional dynamic. And for you, it was being mom's emotional relief. You were rigged and programmed this way.
This might be a difficult pill to swallow, or a pill that you don't see as an issue. Because you normalised being devoured by momma. The alternative way of life won't appeal to you.
But no matter the case, you should realise one thing: that alternative life was robbed from you. You had no choice to be the way you are. That should piss you off.
Because healthy families facilitate freedom, choice, growth, individuation. Parents encourage kids to be their own person, able to choose what they wanna be. You didn't get that choice.
Your mom may have not intended it, but she snuffed out and suffocated that from your development. She did that by committing emotional incest with her own child to cope with the fact her man ran away.
It's not something you should celebrate
