Aliens edition

I am ready to accept the fact that love is not for me.

>>33356102
dont give up anon

>>33356102
Brutal mate... I'm feeling the same. It feels so fucking impossible. Being an aspie cunt is fucking miserable- being an aspie cunt that looks normal and habitually masks is killing me
I ruined it with a girl I've been interested in for a year and a half
I could have kissed her and likely fucked her but instead I told her how I feel and she's fucken gone, pulled the old let's be friends thing and slowly faded out

All I can do is remind myself that she lied to me a FUCKTON in a very short space of time; the omission of information and outright fabrication of other information is an indication of her true character, ie. she would lie on a much grander scale in the context of a relationship
She also travels constantly which I can't be fucked with desu desu, I'm trying to view it objectively and see that it would be an ultra high-maintenance relationship and ultimately not for me
but the fact that it got to the stage where I could have kissed her, in fact did briefly and pulled away because I knew that I was completely done for if I followed through and would break my own heart even harder than I have currently... Could have picked her up and thrown her down on her bed and fucked the absolute shit out of her... I can't get past that
It's been 6 weeks or something and all I do is torture myself, I can't stop
It's slowly receding but I dare say I'll be fucked again when I see her next
Make it stop, fuck
Advice appreciated

after 25 years of being single i now have a girlfriend. having basically zero intimacy during that time due to mental issues, my current relationship feels surreal. she is autistic but has relationship experience, so far she has been incredibly patient with me. it’s as if my heart is slowly defrosting as i’m getting used to the idea and feeling that someone genuinely loves me, or is getting there atleast.

i’m trying hard not to sabotage myself and find myself thinking i don’t want to fuck this up. but most importantly i must keep being myself and enjoy the moment.

Most of the things I'm into are old, and I think I know how to ride the line between being myself and sounding out of touch to an awkward degree to people I care about, but sometimes I wonder if I sound odd to everyone all the time instead of when I catch myself saying odd things.
>>33356153
>DUDE I COULD'VE TOUCHED BOOBIE
>But I don't like this bitch
You made a good decision. Now shut up.
>>33356177
>she is autistic but has relationship experience
then what the absolute fuck is the point? Have fun with your roastie but good God man

>>33356177
I just went throigh this and self destructed the entire thing after 5 years. If you know you are messed, get help while everything is still good.

>>33356203
you’d be hard pressed to find a 22yo female virgin in my country. it is what it is, it doesn’t bother me.

>>33356205
sorry to hear that. there have been multiple moments where i was on the edge of throwing it all away. finally facing my fears and actively working on myself, i will keep it going.

>>33356254
>22yo female virgin
I've been on this bandwagon for a few years myself, and I'll be real fucking honest when I say that the only women I have even a chance of getting along with at any success rate are those who are nearing 30. I'm only 23 myself but due to a variety of circumstances I can only really get along with older people. If it were the case that I met an eighteen year old girl with compatible interests, personality, and vody type then of course I'd take that over the 30 year old version of her, but I've never met one of those. What say you?

>>33356203
re: >>3356153 -- kek, thanks dude
You're right
She's fucking hot but guaranteed heartbreak
You made a good decision, now shut up- I like it
Ultimately this is my cue to develop some fucking self-esteem and KNOW that I can do better