26 kv here.
i recently became attracted to one of my friends. we grew closer thru helping plan my homeboys wedding and when she grabbed my arm on the day of for the ceremony it like set something off in me.

its hard. yknow being this analytical over something thats just innately primal. up to this point i thought i was asexual, now when i see her i cant stop looking at her and thinking about her. i never thought she was hot and now i do. she was over last night, we didnt do anything but i had a lump in my throat the whole time. is there something there or is it cuz i was starving?

im afraid of fucking up the friend group tho. what if it goes south and then my fucking friends are gone. im kind of a freak. shes a lawyer and im an art teacher. im not in the best state mentally, never really was. i mean she came over last night clearly she likes me at some level. i know waiting until im "ready" is just a fallcy.

idk any tips on this scenario? all i can think is keep hanging and do more one on ones and see if that feeling stays then go for it?

What’s ur height? If its less than 6 it’s over