My girlfriend and I broke up after 1.5 years. The reason for the break up was an argument, and she was 'unable to forgive', so she took the initiative to break off our otherwise calm relationship.She never cheated, I was her first serious relationship. I never explicitly asked her just not to have male friends. but she did it on her own, she broke down her relationships with these people. She was pretty, didn't wear makeup because she didn't like it. My own problem is that I just can't move on. The breakup happened around 2 months ago. Unfortunately she stabbed me in the back, told me behind my back to all my bad buddies, as he said his "bullshit detector flagged" so he told me what my ex told her. I'm on 1 dating site specifically for "young people" where I met my ex-girlfriend, this one currently has 3-4 possibilities against me. I don't have a problem with not being sent-req back, or not being 'requested' at all, the problem is this: I write to her, she doesn't write back, fine.
I write her, we talk, she turns out to be a worldly idiot, I would kill myself next to her, we're just not on the same level
Third, she turns out to be just not good looking, she may be totally nice, but I can't bring myself to meet her later.
Fourth, that we don't have the same interests at all and he's not a good match for me
I miss my ex-girlfriend, because she already knew my habits, I knew her stupidities, her positives, so I just got used to her. I don't miss her as a whole, especially after she stabbed me in the back, but I just can't reconcile myself to the idea that I might have a different wife later on, settling down with a woman I don't like or don't like. I feel like a bitch about it, but the feeling doesn't really go away even after 2 months, and fuck, it really bothers me. I feel like I'd rather kill myself than be with someone else. Maybe the first true love is actually the last for every person. What would you do in such a case? Or what have you done.

>>33359099 (OP)
just keep busy and give it time. this is such a basic issue that you have to learn it only has 1 solution.

>>33359099 (OP)
Going on 3 years for me since my gf left without saying goodbye or giving me an explanation. I don't mourn the relationship anymore, but I've never stopped being in pain.

>>33359099 (OP)
Dude, 2 months is nothing. Breaking up a relationship with someone you love will take way more to heal. I need at least 1.5 years. It's not the same for anybody but you should give yourself more time.

Think in like this: if you broke your arm in half, do you think you'll be just fine in 2 months? No way.

>>33359099 (OP)
If she still wants to be with you, she'll ask you for forgiveness? Idk. Have closure with her. Next time just spank her with a rolled up magazine ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

>>33362295
this is understandable, but still I dont know, I aint feel that I'll be fine later. If you know what I mean.

It is a little bit hard to talk about it. It aint feel like 'I dont get bitches' its more feel like I cant find the girl that is 'compatible' to me. It is almost the same when woman cries over that no one can understand her, just like there is hundred man who would be with her. I'm a bitch in this case,there are woman who would be with me, the problem is that I dont want them .I am not attracted to them. I dont wanna act like I love them becouse it is not true love, and It will just make my life harder.

Your explanation is great. The problem I dont have any friends who went along the same problem, since most of them never had gf, or atleast this long. (It is not long, but def. longer than theirs sadly)

I could send a "Anonym" message to her due this app, but I feel like she will just use this thing to boost her ego that she's made amends, and I'm the bitch who "begs himself back to her."

I feel really alone with this. I dont really know why. Before I meet her, I had this kind of problem, but could not care less, after that I experienced this, It is worse than before our relationship.
sorry for venting a lot, i hope you understand my pain with my poor english skills.

>>33362540
I understand, anon. Breaking up with her entails not only losing her company, but also returning to loneliness.

I got my heart broken and wandered aimlessly for 3 years. I'm still are. Alone, no friends, and no one real to talk to. Only LLMs and books.

My point is, breaking up takes time. It's like a physical wound. You must give yourself time. The thing is, recovery is slow and painful. You won't care much or want another woman. Because, like a wound in the flesh, it cannot simply be filled. It must heal slowly, at your body's pace. In this case, it’s not the body but the mind that is damaged, or, speaking more poetically, your soul.

I haven’t gotten rid of loneliness myself, so I can’t offer you any help there.

I can only tell you: losing someone is a wound that takes time to heal. Be patient. You’ll suffer a lot, but eventually it will heal. The winter always passes, and then comes the spring.

Its been like a year for me and the only thing that has made it better is that six months ago I started a program that is really difficult and occupies all my time and stresses me out to no end. Otherwise I would probably be freaking out. Two months is really much too soon. Take this opportunity to do something youve always wanted to do. Be the man you dreamed of becoming. Do something dangerous and worthy.

>>33363264
Thank you for your time. It aint made me happy, nor better, but you have the point. I wonder if she (or generally) women does feels the same, or they just go/went alone better with these kind of thing than us. For one thing, perhaps I can take comfort in the knowledge that I have at least experienced that first, selfless feeling of love. Here it might be described as teenage love, I don't really care, but at least I know it exists. It's a pity that, for the moment, it doesn't seem to be "repeatable", which would be paradoxical, because once it's happened, it won't happen again atleast the same as it was. I was thinking about the suicide as a final option, I might do it if It does not get better. I don't want my parents to go through more suffering after all this because of me. They put more work into making my life relatively fair, they don't deserve that. Hopefully my brothers will do a better job of living up to my family name than I did. Anon, I hope you get better too.

>>33363278
For making this more bearable, I also started my unfinished project, a Video and Audio player just for fun. this thing takes your mind off it

Its honestly really upsetting how the whims of a woman can make a strong man suffer for years