>>33360188 (OP)I absolutely understand you OP. i was in this situation.
I am not gonna tell you how i got out, instead I'm gonna tell you what IMO makes sense.
You say, you were cold approached by girls but you still fucked up ( I can relate).
You might be like me and not really enjoy the company of other people.
One advice I can give you is to talk to a lot of people and listen to them. You lack the knoledge to influence their emotions.
Or maybe you're just ugly (idk i'm no social genius), I just hooked up with a few women.