>be now
>childhood dog and best friend died that August.
>had adopted another in october, had narcisstic mom return him, giving us a mornings notice.
>As such relationship with her is abysmal. Haven't (still dont) talk to her.
>be christmas of that year. get cheap crap I don't want.
>put said crap all together tucked out of the way, listed on secondhand selling websites.
>she finds it, assumes I don't want it, (note lack or ability to communicate- to ask) donates it ALL.
>only survivor is a soft blanket I'd put in my room
>blanket sells.
>cant find blanket where it was in my room.
>text asking mom if she took it.
>ignored.
>ask in person the next day. First time speaking to her in months.
>she squints all confused at the photo I'm showing her.
>"Oh. Maybe. I don't think so. I might have donated it. Since you said you didn't want it. It might be in my closet" sputtering and stumbling over her words.
>I start for upstairs to look (I'd already looked there. I know she's lying)
>she practically chases me up the stairs.
>she shuffles hangers in her closet for all of 5 seconds.
>"Yeah I don't have it."
>I say it was in my room
>she says she didn't take it.
>I tell her I don't believe her.
>she singsongly says "OK, anon." And moves on

How do I keep my sanity. I'm suicidal for multiple reasons but she actively tries to give me a hard time whenever she can. He knows ive been diagnosed with major depressive disorder and that i have been suicidal. She's a covert narcisst. She doesn't care about me.

It's especially bad because I am in extreme poverty. She KNOWS this. She knows I struggle to cover my phone bill and to pay for medications. She's probably so smug and happy right now. She got one over on me! She was able to impact me! She won she's probably like "hell yeah I win!!".

She probably has it in the guest room.
I had been sleeping in the guest room after my dog died. Because I slept with my dog in my room for 15 years. It's very difficult and scary to be in there.
She had a episode of "wanting her house back." She installed a lock on the guest room door, and thew all my belongings, bathroom items, pillows etc into the hallway leading to my room. I can only guess that is when she found the blanket. She probably has it in there and has been using it herself. She lies straight to my face and feels no shame. I need to get in there somehow and look.
I've tried to lockpick it but it's difficult to see the pins that are further back.

Steal her wallet

>>33362586 (OP)
Only way you're going to solve this is by giving up on this specific problem, and leaving her all together, getting a job and finding your own place to live. Even if you get this blanket back, there's just going to be more instances of the same shit happening.
Also, if you're on meds for your (((diagnosis))), it's probably destroying your mind as well, making you weak, and obviously making your financial issues worse, so you may want to reconsider those.

>>33362586 (OP)
This happens all the time. Move out. Some women are like that, you can't change her, you can't put limits (because she'll ignore them) just move out and away.