I’m only 23 and I fucked up and became an alcoholic. I am up to almost a 6 pack a fucking day and I used to cope and say I don’t have a problem and I can control it but now I am pretty sure I have a problem and can’t control it. Being sober is excruciating now, not physically, but mentally. I know if I continue it will get to that point. I wish I could stop but the cycle of anxiety and depression during the comedown and subsequent sobriety push me to drink over and over again. I am “functional” in that I am disciplined to be /fit/ but my social life is in shambles because I need to be at least somewhat sauced to enjoy a conversation with someone. Pic unrelated but advice appriciated.

My dad passed away recently from alcoholism at the age of 55. Anytime he socialized it was either at a bar or a party with alcohol.
He died of liver and kidney failure in a hospital because he just couldn't stop drinking.
His final days were spent with him not being able to pick his own head up to drink out of a straw without help and his skin was bright yellow.
Don't be a fucking pussy dude. Stop it for your friends, family, and more importantly for yourself.

>>33362988 (OP)
im 30 and i drink a lot. its really nice not being hung over. i dont get traditional hang overs any more, but i find i just cant think properly and i get dizzy. i really appreciate the days i dont have this

>I need to be at least somewhat sauced to enjoy a conversation with someone.
you dont have to enjoy chit chat and gossiping.

this video is interesting, they talk about the effects of alcohol on the brain and why its addicting
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ocSPQp49DtQ

>>33362988 (OP)
You can change, anon
What do you feel when you talk to someone while sober?

>>33362988 (OP)
You seem like you will never be able to just enjoy a few drinks once per week. Youll need to quit permanently. Try it through your own willpower. If it doesnt work then get professional help. Being an alcoholic will ruin your life, if you are lucky enough to not die.

>>33363179
I do not like people in general. Even “loved ones”. When talking to people I feel like I am completing some tedious chore inflicted upon me. When I drink I feel like I can have a conversation just saying what comes to mind. Like a normal person.

>>33363284
Why don't you like people? What do you feel in their presence?

>>33363288
Because they’re exhausting. Loud, selfish, performative. Most speak without thinking, act without caring, and follow without questioning. What do I feel in their presence? Irritation. Discomfort. A need to retreat. I watch them pretend, posture, lie. Sober, I feel like an outsider observing a badly written play. I don’t hate them individually always, but as a collective, they disappoint me. It’s quieter without them. Cleaner.

>>33362988 (OP)
NAC might help you, please research it, its easy to get.

I am a simple man, i see feet, i click thread

>>33363309
Do you feel like you're acting with care when you abuse alcohol?

>>33363335
Based

>>33363344
Depends what you mean by that

>>33363366
What would you think of them if they drank a six pack a day?

>>33363393
desu thats not very much

>>33363411
Perhaps they act in those ways to cope too

>>33363393
I’d think they finally understand. That maybe they see the world for what it is; dull, fake, cruel. Like me, they’re just trying to dull the sting. I wouldn’t judge them. I’d probably drink with them. Not out of friendship, but because at least they’re honest in their decay. Better that than pretending everything’s fine while fake smiling through their teeth like they do now.

>>33362988 (OP)
So, let's just run some numbers. A can of beer is around 440ml. If the beer is 5.5% alcohol by volume, that's 2.42 units per can. So a 6-pack is 14.5 units. If you drink that much every day, that's over 100 units a week.

Absolutely no one can drink that amount for any length of time and not have a serious drinking problem.

So yeah, you have a problem, and you need to quit. And I'm afraid someone like yourself is never going to be able to drink moderately or sensibly again: giving up alcohol completely and permanently is your ONLY option. It is absolutely essential that you understand and accept that: if you have the first drink, you *will* have the second, third, fourth, etc. That means you can never again have the first drink. That, you do have control over.

However, you may already be at the point of being physically addicted to alcohol. And if you are, then stopping suddenly may actually be quite dangerous. So the first thing you need to do is go to your doctor and explain the situation, and ask for advice. You may be advised to cut down slowly, or you may be prescribed diazepam to keep the withdrawal symptoms in check, I don't know. But talk to your doctor.

Once you have successfully gone sober and got past the withdrawal, that's when the hard part begins. Alcohol shields you from the problems in your life, and also prevents you from doing anything about them. When you're sober, you'll be able to see and feel just how empty and boring your life has become. But on the plus side, once you're sober, you will actually be capable of doing something about it for the first time in a while! You'll need to find interesting and fun things and people to fill your life with: being bored or lonely are the worst possible things for an addict. And you'll also need to carefully analyse what situations, people and places tend to make you drink (or want to) and then systematically avoid them all, at least for a while.

>>33362988 (OP)
beautiful feet, shame that won’t exist in 10 years. nothing to look forward to in this hell.

>>33363423
See >>33363420
Why is poisoning yourself more noble than pretending or forcing a laugh?
You are still hurting someone

>>33362988 (OP)
I won't read drunkard threads.