I feel clueless about everything. My parents didn't teach me anything about life. I'm 23 years old. I feel suffocated beneath their presence, like a little kid I feel I'm not allowed to do anything without their approval. I don't want to spend my entire 20s living like I'm still 15. I want to move away, I don't even know or care where. I'm desperate for the independence to be able to live and have actual experiences, make my own mistakes and learn from them.

But it's not like my home life is overtly distressing, I don't have an abusive relationship with my parents or anything like that. For this reason the whole thing feels kind of retarded. Like I would be throwing away a comfortable and free home life to pay rent out my ass every week, just pissing money away into a void and also having to worry about taking care of myself with no-one to fall back on when I just don't feel like it. When my parents leave and I'm alone at home for two or three weeks, I always fall apart. I sleep all day, eat one proper meal every 2 days because I'm too lazy to make any more, and in general just fail to care for myself. But I don't know if that means I will be incapable of doing it if I was truly alone, or if it's just because I know that my parents will return and therefore I don't really have to bother.

Ever since I was like 12 I have romanticized living alone in a cheap (well, not anymore), dingy hovel like picrel with very little belongings and cares in the world. Is this a reasonable wish? Is it worth paying all that rent to be able to live freely and independently during these years of my life? I should mention also that I am not American so I feel no kind of external cultural pressure to move, it is internal.

Have you told them how you feel?

>>33363313
I have never successfully had any kind of serious conversation with them about anything to be honest. Whenever I have tried it hasn't gone well so I resigned to never do so again some years ago.

>>33363320
Would you like to if it was possible?

>>33363331
If it was possible, yes. I envy those who are close with their parents and can entrust to them their sincere thoughts and feelings.

>>33363345
Listen, I could not do it until recently either. They aren't abusing you to boot.
It has been years since you had that doubtful thought. You're a man now. You should try again.
Tell them that you'd like to speak seriously about what you feel. Ask them to sit down more seriously with them. Maybe in public. And be assertive. I think they want to know that you are unsatisfied and require more.

>>33363304 (OP)
Can't you buy somewhere rather than renting?

what game is that?

>>33363304 (OP)
>I feel clueless about everything. My parents didn't teach me anything about life.
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I won't read parent-blaming walls of text.

>>33363304 (OP)
Get a gf and NEET off her. That’s what I do.
Why else would I be on this stupid ass website.

>>33363793
Vampire the Masquerade: Bloodlines.

That image really brings back memories of a great time in my life..

Also OP, yes do it. It will teach you more about yourself in such a short time. You really don't need much to life comfy for now.

>>33364299
You might need to find a new website to frequent then

>>33363304 (OP)
It definitely sounds like you need to get out of the house, but you right about not wanting to rent an apartment. There are many jobs that include room and board. Look into cruise ships, national parks, camp counselor, ski resorts, rafting guide, and many more. These are also the type of jobs where you will have coworkers your age to make friends with and hook up with. Of course there's also the military. Go live an epic life anon.