Hello. I M(21) dropped out of university, but I have one final chance to re-enroll.

Options:
Grant: A good university, they pay me to study.
Local University: I have enough exam points to get in free.
Online: Costs $700-800 per year. (cuz exam point)

I want to be an IT specialist. (I'm interested in vector graphics and building graphics engines. This niche requires strong math, learn it online is bad idea)

This is my last year for the grant. My senpai had money for my education, but it was diverted to medical needs (not for me). I won't take student loans. My parents are old and are waiting to be laid off (for severance pay) before retiring. They can't support me financially anymore.
My initial plan was to take the grant, and if things went wrong, switch to online learning. However, I guess, I can't survive there.

My stress reaction is bit extreme. This doesn't affect my professional skills, but basic daily life. Examples: I cancelled a doctor's appointment just for paperwork because the thought of talking to him was too stressful. I can't return Amazon products. At my worst, I used a fire escape for two months just to avoid saying "hello" to a polite old concierge, despite living above the 8th floor.

After dropping out, I spent 7 months gaming (yes, Ik how this sounds). It took me 2 months just to type in text chat; I still can't use voice chat.

Meds were prescribed and taken, but useless. They work as intended, but don't help. Instead of apathy, I become so devoid of purpose I barely get out of bed. Without them, I'm frozen by stress.

I can't start a business. I can earn money by configuring software, but... Tutoring/online sales are stressful. Freelance mb (if I can find platforms for crypto payment that don't require official docs).

So, should I exchange the cool capital uni for online study (without any backup) or just fuck it all? (Therapy/army/emigration are off the table)

>>33364792 (OP)
I won't read drop-out threads.