Some days I feel like I’m not really part of this world. Just a ghost, watching life happen from the sidelines. Anyone else feel like this? Im 19 now and it feels like clocks are just beating on.

>>33365555 (OP)
You may have depression. See a doc, get blood tests and start therapy, medication.

Yeah I feel like that frequently

>>33365555 (OP)
You are 19
Thats normal for that age. I felt like that until I turned 25.
Soc media probably doesnt help.

>>33365575
thats definitely true, but its my environment causing that. i lice in the midwest and its the really shit rust belt existential prison. feel like shit mainly because most people here are dead inside or fake. im so lonely and i wish i coulf just fit in but its too late. thats why im typing these run on sentences, crying at 2 AM.

Go to college/uni somewhere.
>Can't afford it
Student loans
>Reasons
Just do it, you need a change.

>>33365555 (OP)
You'll feel a lot more agency if you get more income or wealth as you get older, but also then there's like a new dread about how your responsibilities control you. I say push through, try to get your life together, and meet new cool people different from the ones now, but don't give up on your family unless they are abusive.

>>33365555 (OP)
Even negative emotions are a way of celebrating and using this life you've been given. When you're dead, you won't get to feel any type of way about it. You won't feel anymore. Or think. You won't even be.

So, is the way you're feeling right now ideal? Probably not. But at least you're feeling.

>>33365648
>>33365619
definitely true. i resent every millenial i see taking 3rd spaces for granted. now especiall where i live its just barren, both literally and figuratively. If anyone wants to reach out to me please,

i feel so empty right now. before the pandemic i was already "weird", already ostracized, already picked on but after it i just find it hard to relate to others. This world is so plastic and fake. I always hayed social media but this is like my last resort. anyone wanting to make a real connection my social(snap, twitter, etc) it's "decaychan", insta is "decaychan," for now.

>>33365627
i dont have enough meney. I dont like campus envirnoments in the area im in

>>33365555 (OP)
In your fear of creating something normal and unimpressive, you stare at that blank canvas of life long enough and you wait until all the paint dries up, and your heart stops loving life, the fire in your soul turns into ash, your flesh turns into bones and your dreams and thoughts fade into oblivion.

>>33365657
>When you're dead, you won't get to feel any type of way about it. You won't feel anymore. Or think. You won't even be.
Sounds amazing desu

>>33365657
That sounds pretty good actually

>>33365627
Do you have a car or any sort of vehicle? A job? If so, you could start doing delivery app shit which is all the rage now. If not, getting a temporary job to at least fulfill basic expenses and help pay for college could help. Also check out FAFSA and so forth, since you could still get financial assistance for Uni, or barring that, JC for undergrad stuff.

>>33366902
nah, im a neet femcel lol. what did you expect?

>>33365622
>crying at 2 AM
It ends when you hit 40

>>33365555 (OP)
Attention whore

>>33365555 (OP)
Talk to people
>But people make me anxious/are put off by me/ make me feel bad etc
Try this: Just fucking say
>Hey
>How's it going
>(Contextual question)[e.g do you come here often? How did you find about this place?]
>(Talk about yourself, make questions about their answer, change the topic to things you like, probe for things the other person likes)
>(Change the topic to something deep like how people are bullied or some other shit you think is important to you)
>Ask for contact

Just fucking do it. If you feel like saying something is a no-no or any other mental barrier, fucking say it and feel the adrenaline rush. You're learning about how you feel about talking to people

>>33367834
you really dont get whet the dilemma is here. The problem is that most people especially in this normie shit city im from aren't really worth getting to know. That's another reason im isolated. Thus place is full of NPCs coping in a perpetual strip mall goy slop cycle. which is why im on here. maybe someone on this site is like me, and seeking non normies that aren't a drag on their soul. if anyone wants to reach out give me a sign. my insta is decaychan.void, i want to find connection

>>33366526
>I don't have enough money
As I said, student loans. You can get enough to live on
>My area
The whole point is to move somewhere else. Go to uni SOMEWHERE ELSE.
>Excuses
Maybe you're just a complainer who doesn't want to put in any real effort to change their situation.

>>33366526
Are you trying to secretly advertise an OF or something? You're actually hot asf and posting this sort of shit seems sus to be honest
>men don't even look at her
Yeah sure this is what is giving you away as a sadgirl no attention larp

>>33368276
>my insta is decaychan.void, i want to find connection
timestamp or gtfo grifter

>>33368307
>Are you trying to secretly advertise an OF or something?
Yes

You guys cannot be this gullible, this person is so completely obviously phishing.

It's like everyone's first day on the internet around here.

>>33368321
Fuck u

>>33365555 (OP)
if you stop learning new things the clocks speed up and in a blink 2 years have passed and you raise your head and go: huh was that it, what did I even do in the past year or two?

>>33368468
looks like ai

>>33368276
I had the same problem and I'm working it out, I tell you from experience.

God the toughest shit i've ever done is confessing to this bimbo looking girl who's got me around her finger. But I fucking did it, I mustered strength, I went to hell and back mentally for 3 hours and when I had the chance I fucking told her I liked her. That obviously didn't end up in a relationship, but it was a step forward for me. This happened like 3 months ago.

Last week I went to a beautiful girl at the mall and I also mustered strength for 5 minutes before going to her, shitting spaghetti and telling her I liked her. Again this was a failure but it gave me a confidence boost.

You have to realize when you see people in terms of utility, that's YOU facing your own invisible mental wall. You believe this is about people, but no, it's about you protecting your pride, pretending being an elitistic retard on 4chan has meaning.

I don't talk to people out of the blue, it has to be a really beautiful woman and she has to be alone for me to step out of my rails, but that selectiveness is just being worked on. You can try talking to people at:
>Concerts, talk to whoever is next to you
>Conventions, talk to the nerd in the stand, he won't fucking move and has a reason to talk to you
>museums, art galleries, etc, talk to whoever is giving the tour. Step up and ask something personal bit by bit
>Tourists at tourist spots, you will never see them again, you will be a part of their memories
>The lady in the supermarket line, she has lived all she needs, she wants to pass the time and you're there with her
>The Janitor at school, he just wants the day to be over.
>Male classmates between classes, they understand your pains
>HARD MODE
>Girls in public, see them as speech practice
>Girls in your class, get to know them
>Girls you want to actually impress wherever you find them.

>>33368550
No one cares bruh

>>33368468
>Fuck u
OK when and where?

>>33368468
>is an 8 or 9
Either OF or sugar daddy farming

>>33366526
>anyone wanting to make a real connection my social(snap, twitter, etc) it's "decaychan"
wtf

>>33368764
lmao i wondered too who took that name. Im not from brazil

>>33368776
what's your twitter then?

>>33365555 (OP)
Have interesting problems. I am 46 and I have chess and programming. When I was younger I also read a lot, mostly spiritual stuff like Castañeda, and today sometimes Scientology books, as my father never really was interested in me. Gaming also gets more and more interesting, but can not really cope with chess. I want to make more music as I did earlier, but I don't have the software anymore after a Laptop switch. If I had unrestricted money, I would build some stuff with wood. Or building the bicycle I always wanted to have. Or create a fully automated weed farm and sell it. Or build the house I always wanted to have.

>>33368701
Fanvue

>>33368995
I subbed - she’s hot

Are you wasian?

>>33368468
Just go anywhere and enjoy meeting people. You're pretty and young. OF will give you money but damage your soul

I respect the hustle, this is a good place to start your simp farm. Get that bag girl

>>33365555 (OP)
Quads checked.

19? You're too young to give up. Get a job, go to school, make an effort.

>>33365622
me too everyone sucks but I'm also just really poor otherwise I'd have moved the fuck out of here right away. You need to just work your ass off right now. Stick your dick up your ass and start acting like a bitch and get a good position or bust your ass. Either way make some money and fucking move.

>>33369684
>Used to pay cam girls to fist themselves in private shows
It’s true, every once in a while a girl would breakdown during a show. One who claimed they LOVED being a cam girl had the worst meltdown I ever experienced
>Ugly crying
>I never wanted to do this!
>This isn’t who I wanted to be!
That’s when I quit camming around 10 years ago. Was too painful for my soul and watching girls destroy theirs for money also

You’re all so fucking stupid this bitch is a whore advertising her Fanvue and you all fell for it. Faggots

Since you're a woman OF or escort. Escorts make insane money if they have the right look. Save up for plastic surgery (good tit and ass job, etc.). If you escort you can get around actual sex with foot fetish ads which may pay more than regular sex because it is a fetish. But OF is probably easier, would also beat the slavery of the trophy wife life.

>>33370288
She already does OF, just not OF itself but an alternative site for e-whores called Fanvue

>>33365555 (OP)
>Some days I feel like I’m not really part of this world. Just a ghost, watching life happen from the sidelines. Anyone else feel like this? Im 19 now and it feels like clocks are just beating on.
This is how foids feel going 2 weeks without attention from chad.
Nice quads btw.
Also, if u are a virgin with no tats, be my gf?

>>33368550
I like this advice Anon, If you could I would like to hear more on what you have to say as I like your phrasing.

Have a kitten riding a bike as a token of my appreciation

>>33365555 (OP)
Decaying in view of her fans
Rotting alone
Texting on chans
Maybe this thread
Will buy her a new phone

https://voca.ro/13ttaVK2rMip