There's so much wrong with me, I don't even know where the fuck to begin.
I have no hope for the future. I live in the US and I make decent money for someone my age, but it's still not much considering the COL, and I hardly ever spend any of it anyways. I'm probably going to die in my mid-50s at the absolute latest due to climate change.
I am a misanthrope. I hate humanity and this world they've built. That said, I occasionally still feel loneliness (no idea why) and sexual desire. But I have no friends and things like hookups or one-night-stands are impossible for me.
I'm pretty sure I have some sort of mental disease. I often feel depressed, and growing up, school was extremely difficult for me because I could never pick up on social cues, and learning things/memorizing facts was very hard, no matter how much I studied. I've been working towards my dream job, but it's an extremely difficult industry to "make it" in, meaning all the time and money and effort I'm spending will almost certainly end up being a gigantic waste.
I don't want to die, but I'm 100% certain it's the correct thing to do. I would love to live a long and happy life, but I don't see any way of that happening. I don't even know what advice I want (my therapist couldn't fix me, so I definitely don't expect fucking 4chan to do so). I guess I just wanted to type this all out.

what is your ideal life?

>>33369794
unattainable.

:c

spill?

>>33369828
no idea what this means.

>>33369768 (OP)
>Make decent money
You're already better off than most people

>Hurr durr I was le sad in school
Literally everyone was

>I'm gonna die from le scary climate change
Can't tell if you're taking the piss but lmao

You sound like a low IQ retard, there is no fix for that unfortunately

>>33369954
>You're already better off than most people
Most people (as far as I can tell at least) are happy, even if they're making half my salary at a much harder job. I'm almost never "happy".
>Literally everyone was
It was different for me. I went to school in a really rural, redneck backwater town in the middle of nowhere. Not only were my teachers sadistic (I'm not even kidding), I'm pretty sure some of the stuff that went on back then wasn't even legal. I actively hate most of the people I met back then, even though I haven't actually seen them in many years.
But besides that, the worst part was just how useless it all was. Literally 0% of the skills I use in my job came from school. I learned them all on my own. From the first day of preschool up until I graduated college was about 2 decades, and not one minute of it contributed to who I am today AT ALL.
>Can't tell if you're taking the piss
I'm not. Let's just say I live in an area that's going to get hit HARD once climate change really kicks in a few years from now. And I don't know if you've noticed, but the US government isn't exactly famous for taking care of its citizens. I've tried applying to jobs in other countries, but no luck so far.

>>33369883

spill is basically spill the beans (spit out the info!!)

n if you have no hope for the future, your best bet is to just keep living. yes, it's sorta annoying to not have any will to live, but find some kind of reason to get out of bed in the morning.

>>33370026
>if you have no hope for the future, your best bet is to just keep living.
That makes zero fucking sense.

then kill yourself.

lol. suicide is a stupid thing to do, and you've said "I have no hope for the future." so your two options are to keep living for something, or die. get a plant or a pet. atleast try to enjoy your short life. and you said that you have money but don't spend it. if you have any goddamn interests at all, fucking use that money.

>>33369768 (OP)
If you have this issue, drop out of society. You have three options:
1. Sell drugs
2. Become a financial parasite
3. Fake a disability
Or some combination. I too refuse to serve a society that does not benefit me.
Also, you should hate humanity and all of material creation, as well as the creator that made it. Leave the matrix, achieve gnosis while chillen

>>33370181
>suicide is a stupid thing to do
Not if there's no hope for the future. In that case, it's 100% the correct thing to do.
>atleast try to enjoy your short life
How the fuck am I supposed to do that? I seriously don't understand how people are happy at all, when there's so much horrible shit going on in the world.
>>33370192
There is no fucking "creator", just like there is no afterlife.

>>33370226

absurdism

>>33370292
So the only way to be happy is by abandoning all logic and reasoning?

be grateful for your life and have a nice life.

>>33369768 (OP)
>There's so much wrong with me,
>[wall of text]
I won't read laundry list of woes. The OP doesn't have the good manners to concisely state one problem for readers to help him with but instead just does a diarretic gusher dump of eeeeverything he was ever bothered about. That tells you that he can't be helped at all, because he's going to nitpick, shoot down or ignore anything suggested (remember, he has no manners, no consideration whatsoever for those wanting to help). There is nothing that can be done.

>>33370502
>be grateful for your life
Fuck that. I wish my mom had aborted me.
>have a nice life.
How is that even possible?

>>33369768 (OP)
People have begun to lose their hopes and forget their dreams.

Nobody cares about anything anymore.
Nobody wants to get together anymore.
Nobody does anything without getting paid anymore.
Nobody wants to do anything anymore.

https://youtu.be/kVaolNKt2zw
https://youtu.be/1d925iMSuLY

You take life too seriously, you are physical events temporarily colliding, kill yourself, start stealing shit, it's the only time you'll ever be conscious, make it count or don't, just don't wallow in misery. Probably get off the internet, but noone ever takes that advice.

>>33373242
>just don't wallow in misery
I'm not trying to, but I just feel so shitty all the time. I just don't think me and this world are compatible.

>>33369768 (OP)
>>33369768 (OP)
Have you heard of Christopher McCandless?
Be Christopher McCandless!
Also read the Hollingdale translation of Thus Spake Zarathustra. Give up your miserable ease!
You're not a misanthrope: humanity generally doesn't give a fuck.
Dying is NOT the correct thing to do. You just have to live correctly.
Links:
Caribou https://youtu.be/yQEkLOxFZoQ?si=kY6-Ynni25O1tbQK
Art of Dying https://youtu.be/HTr7bqKHvgE?si=gqPZjXVRQVHpu7AH
Thus Spake https://www.thriftbooks.com/w/also-sprach-zarathustra-ein-buch-fr-alle-und-keinen_friedrich-nietzsche/252244/item/7276260/

>>33374798
I live cement
I hate this street
Give dirt to me
I've got lament
This human form
Where I was born
I now repent.

There is a solution and it is not to kill yourself. Walk out of the matrix.
Good luck.

>>33369768 (OP)
>i'm probably going to die in my mid-50s at the absolute latest due to climate change.
LMAOOOO imagine being this psyoped
>I hate humanity and this world they've built.
yet you are here talking to humans. just literally kill yourself