My entire childhood was arbitrary and pointless negative social reinforcement constantly - from peers, teachers, and my parents. Because of this I am bitter but also feel no shame. I always expect the worst and don't care if I make others uncomfortable or afraid (I am quite aloof, tall, and have a physically strong build). I notice this with any social environment I am in (outside of my best friends) - whether at work, university, dates, university, church, or anywhere else. I feel this 70% of the time I go outside.
>>33370055 (OP)I won't read yet another I hate everybody thread because one has to wonder how OP manages to exclude himself from the supposed "everybody." So he doesn't hate everybody and we have here a poorly formed whine rather than a coherent request for help and so it should be discarded.
Best I can answer because I relate so much, is that your feelings are valid. It's easy to hate and mistrust everyone. But you can still love and trust yourself. If you can learn to love yourself, then other shitty people won't bother you as much.
We're all just kids in adult bodies grappling with how bad our childhoods were. How you manage to surpass it is up to you. Vague but I don't know you well enough to be specific.
>>33371200The problem isn’t really self-hatred or anything at the risk of sounding vain I’m perfectly fine with myself and my best friends it’s really just everyone else that I struggle with. Thanks for the advice though that’s definitely very true and appreciated.
>>33370950Seconded.
