I used to think I was asexual, but my doctor put me on some stuff to help my low energy/mood, and I guess asexuality was a symptom bc I've had the dumbest crush on this guy from one of my classes and it's really getting on my nerves how retarded it makes me feel.
We've sat together most of the semester and we hang out casually after classes but now I'm attracted to him and it just paints a layer of awkwardness on every attempt I make to talk to him.
I'm probably not good to just stop the medicine on account of this side effect, but I need to be able to talk to this guy without it being tangled up in weird daydreams. How can I turn stuff around and get the sort of upper hand in all of this that I don't feel like I'm suddenly retarded? I was happier being asexual and not getting all wound up over this kind of stuff.

>>33372983 (OP)
>How can I turn stuff around and get the sort of upper hand in all of this that I don't feel like I'm suddenly retarded?
by asking him out, homo

>>33372983 (OP)
>I need to be able to talk to this guy without it being tangled up in weird daydreams
Um, anon… that's how it's supposed to be. The weird daydreams are part of having a crush. You should become functionally retarded in the presence of your crush.
> I was happier
Stop kidding yourself.

>>33373318
>You should become functionally retarded in the presence of your crush.
But that's a problem, I got stuff to do and I don't need to be distracted with something that never distracted me before.
>Stop kidding yourself.
I feel like an idiot and I can't focus and I hate it. I was happier before.
>>33373305
Maybe if I was a guy, it'd be easier. I just keep thinking like I don't want to ruin this friendship for feelings that just sprung up out of nowhere. Guys would have an easier time just getting it out of their system and going back to normal.

>>33373502
>Maybe if I was a guy, it'd be easier.
imagine being female and being "friends" with a male lmfaoooo

fuck him right in the bussy

>>33372983 (OP)
You weren't happier as an asexual. What you call 'happy' isn't happy, it's normalizing emotional disconnection. That's familiar to you, and you felt it was comfy because it's all you knew.

What you need to do is find a solid circle of females to hang around, ones who can teach you how to get that "upper hand". It's called seduction, not the crude sexual kind I simply mean the flattering kind that will bring his attention to you. Things like dressing right, speaking right, leaning into your feminity that you've slept on.

>>33373512
It was working fine for us until now.
>>33374282
I guess that works. I'd really like to go back to normal, to keep everything the way it is, but it feels like things are just going to keep being like this as long as I'm on this medicine, so it may be better to get used to it.

>>33373502
>I don't want to ruin this friendship
There is no friendship. If he's a single man he is either tolerating you or crushing on you. Just fuck and it will make sense. You're probably weird, depressed, anxious, and lame because of your, "asexuality". That's not human behavior. We're fucking animals, Anon. Stop being retarded and gay. Get a stable relationship with a normal man and you'll realize all these psychological issues you think you have are weird ways to cope with the fact we are social creatures who need a mate to be functional adults. There's no way to throw it out there without it feeling awkward but it's easier to say, "do you want to go out on a date with me?" than asking retards for advice on 4chan.

>>33374604
I get what you're saying, but I was just personally much happier being asexual and not worrying about any of this stuff. Now it's like this invasive and all too present feeling I can't shake away and I just feel smothered by it. I don't want to need someone this way. I know that might not be natural, but I liked just having friends and otherwise being on my own. That was my comfortable place.

>>33372983 (OP)
Truly thank you for introducing me to this webcomic.

>>33374648
Welcome to the grand adventure/tragedy of human existence. You're like Bilbo being coaxed out of Bag End by Gandalf at the beginning of "The Hobbit." (The book, not the movie.)

>>33372983 (OP)
You need to cut that medicine out. It's messing with your brain, imagine if you fell in love with some guy and married him then your prescription changes and suddenly you feel nothing for him. That's the scenario you are walking into. Quit your medicine, tell your doctor about the sexual side effects, try again with a different medicine that doesn't change your brain.

>>33373502
>Maybe if I was a guy, it'd be easier.
lmfao, that's funny

>>33374648
>How can I stop being human.
Well, for starters you can learn healthy coping strategies instead of thinking that running away and making yourself even more mentally unwell is a viable solution.

>>33375791
>"Go back to being severely mentally ill"

>>33375824
Quit trying to fuck OP's brain up with micro plastics and chemicals. A pill shouldn't change a person's drives or behavior, and if it does you shouldn't take that pill.

>>33375889
I would be unable to maintain a job or my relationship without lithium. You're simply incorrect. The world doesn't need clear headed unmarried bums

I was really resentful about my own puberty and sexuality. I denied it for a long time, and let society's shame culture influence me. I still shave off my body hair regularly, and I literally still feel awkward in this stupid long-limbed body and these bigger shoulders and jaw etc. They look dumb, to me, but girls seem to like it so that's cool. After I started getting girlfriends, I realised sexuality is just another way to experience the world. It does make you crazy, but so does being hungry&pooping, or being tired, and we can't stop those things. But we work with them, and enjoy them for what they are. Sexuality is just another thing to get used to and find our own tastes and regulate them responsibly.

I have sexuality and I've never experienced this problem.
What stops you simply stop being attracted? That's what I do when I don't want to be attracted to someone. Just look at them and decide you aren't interested.

>>33375889
>A pill shouldn't change a person's drives or behavior,
Think about what you're saying for a second. What do you think medicines like antipsychotics are meant to do?

>>33376457
Good answer.

>>33376885
>Think about what you're saying for a second. What do you think medicines like antipsychotics are meant to do?
OP is actively telling us she doesn't like what the medicine is doing to her. This is different from a prescription doing it's intended behavior. This is a side effect that was not the reason her doctor prescribed this medicine.
She should stop the medicine, tell her doctor, and get a new prescription that treats her original symptoms without influencing behavior.

>>33372983 (OP)
>asexual
no such thing

>>33377318
Asexuality is a thing across multiple species and was first scientifically documented 300 years ago. Literature suggests that people had general awareness of it more than 1000 years ago. Asexuality is real. Not everybody wants to fuck.

>>33372983 (OP)
Just date the guy? People have been doing it for millions of years.
Sounds like the medication works, by the way. This is a better-than-expected outcome.

>>33377604
It feels like I'm being punished with a new set of rules and baggage and more stuff to worry about and I just want to go back to having the same regular old problems I was used to of just being tired all the time. Having no energy was a manageable problem, I just slept a lot.

>>33377708
You were designed by nature to be a sexual creature to further the species. It's unnatural to be sexless. It's wrong to hurt society by refusing to contribute to the next generation of humanity. Get over yourself, quit being such a princess, and admit you like this guy so things can run their course.

>>33377484
hormone imbalance

>>33377873
It was the hormone imbalance those people were naturally born with. That's the way they were meant to be. Next you're going to suggest OP's trans and try to push her down that pipeline because "hormone imbalances should be fixed".

>>33378162
Some people aren't born with two arms.
We know what a balanced human looks like

>>33378176
So by that logic we can just look at people and decide they don't need to align to the way they were created? We can just change them to match our expectation of how they should look? Get out of here with that tranny propaganda.

>>33378162
>people are born without immunity to mumps so they should live through it even though we have vaccines
this is you

>>33378191
Yes. Correct eyesight with laser, defects with surgery and imbalances with medication.
I'll get out of here with two functional arms. Cope armlet

>>33378515
You're interfering with natural selection with vaccines.
>>33378538
None of its real or being true to yourself. Underneath all the pills and the sutured flesh you're still genetically the same defective thing you were before. You just cobbled together a crude attempt to make yourself function like a normal person. Maybe it works. You're as real as a tranny though.

>>33378564
>You're interfering with natural selection with vaccines.
By living in a house or washing your hands with soap you're interfering with natural selection, so you should probably knock that off too. What are you, some kind of edgy fake Nietzschian?

>>33378162
>It was the hormone imbalance those people were naturally born with. That's the way they were meant to be.
Is wearing eyeglasses permissible according to you, or is that also a sin against nature?

>>33372983 (OP)
Really, anon, ask him out. Your problem isn't that you have feelings, it's that you have no way of expressing them. You won't be daydreaming about doing weird things with him nearly as much if you're actually doing them. You have an opportunity to be happy, now, in ways that you didn't previously have access to. You should explore that.

>>33380518
I talked with my mom about it and she started crying and telling me how she was worried I was a lesbian before this since I never had a bf.
I asked if he wanted to go see the new Superman movie with me, as friends, and he said yes. Asking him to go out-out felt like too much pressure.

>>33381163
>I asked if he wanted to go see the new Superman movie with me, as friends, and he said yes.
WOOOAHHH! You go girl!

>>33381198
It doesn't feel like a big win since it's just as friends but everything still feels kind of overwhelming and if I can't get rid of feeling this way I want to take it easy so it doesn't feel too much at once.

>>33381231
I just think it's great that you're taking this step. Just try to have fun! You sound like me when I was 12, except I was basically too cowardly to express myself to the girl I liked.

>>33372983 (OP)
Is the medication wellbutrin?

>>33381231
I think you can feel quite positive about this, anon. It's a step forward. There are other steps to take later, sure, but you're moving in the right direction. Good for you!

>>33381244
>>33381622
It feels kinda bad because my parents told me to focus on school while I'm in college and it hasn't been hard to do that until all this crud started. Now I feel guilty.
>>33381522
It's generic for Wellbutrin yeah.

>>33382042
>It feels kinda bad because my parents told me to focus on school while I'm in college and it hasn't been hard to do that until all this crud started. Now I feel guilty.
This sort of thing can definitely coexist with your studies. I did well at college and I had a gf for most of that. Anyway, it's just part of the human experience. Perhaps in another universe we could just be floating minds, unencumbered by these messy circumstances. Anyway, even if this guy doesn't reciprocate your feelings, it's good that you're taking an assertive role -- you're confronting the challenge rather than shrinking away from it. Regardless of how this turns out, that's a good thing.