>Your ex is doing amazing, because they're smart, witty, cute, etc
>You're rotting, fluctuating in weight and completely miserable without them

It's been 2+ years and I still miss my ex but I'm supposed to pretend I don't somehow. Maybe I'll have a good couple of weeks where it's like we're not together and it's okay, and I remind myself that it's okay, but then I spiral again. I keep thinking about how if I hadn't messed it up, we'd be happy together and I could be growing old with someone, but I'm 30+ and there's no way out now. I think very few people are actually ever in love, because they act like it's so simple to "just get over it" I WISH I FUCKING COULD. I'd rather we'd have not met. No good memory is worth this but I hear her voice. I miss her laugh. I miss her singing. I miss the way she was funny and made me laugh, especially with her impressions.

And nobody has ever come up with a sensible way for me to let go. "Just meet someone" I'd be a burden on others and they in my mind could never replace her. What's the point?

I have never loved anyone so I don’t think I can help.
Sometimes i think about the cute literature tutor girl from college. Maybe you can use it as experience for the next people like I do.

you will heal
meanwhile, go to the fucking gym and make it your 2nd home.
future you will be so thankful.

>>33377038 (OP)
>Just meet someone
you're not there yet, but you will be. provided you get off your ass

>>33377038 (OP)
Look after yourself Anon, learn to grieve and accept. I've had family die and its similar, the hole will be there forever, but you just have to move forward and make a life worth living for yourself even if it doesn't feel complete.

>>33377038 (OP)
I won't read I'm sooooo stoooopid and I'm soooo booooring threads posted by self-absorbed, self-pitying fuckwits.