>>33378970I did go to a shelter, some dude pissed on me while I was sleeping the first night, so I decided to sleep in the car in the Walmart parking lot. I have a job, but getting into an apt here is, absolute cheapest humanly possible, 1200 with deposit, even the fucking ppl subletting on roomies are charging 8-900 buck deposits, for some fucking reason. I've been trying and failing to sleep in this 95deg car for 3 weeks now, I'm exhausted and ready to give up, not just because I am pennyless and will need to somehow save every penny I make for like a month and a half, without spending shit to survive, so probably more like 2 months ....
No the real shit is my family disowning me for moving across the country to be with a trans girl I meet online like 2 years ago, only to have my best friend stab me in the fucking back, go around spreading lies about me to our friendgrp, and convincing the trans gf in question to dump me and throw me out on the street. I want to die because I have nothing, no one, no hope, and the vice is slowly closing in on me, and no matter how drenched with sweat I am every day when I get off work, I'm killing myself just to run in place and prolong my suffering. I don't wanna live on this gay earth anymore. So you guys guna help me get out or just recite canned, empty platitudes at me