I have been through a lot of mental trauma and I'm always on fight or flight mode. Is it possible for me to find peace? I wish I could be in a cozy place like in picrel

>>33379815 (OP)
My faith in Jesus Christ is the sole reason I didn't kill myself as a preteen/teen. I was never expecting to live to my 20s. So you can look into that if you want there's also friends and nature and hobbies I like reading about history.

>>33379840
I'm glad you are still here with us and alive Anon. I do think I have committed the Unforgivable Sin by blaspheming the Holy Spirit when I was younger unfortunately, and whenever I try to read I have a hard time comprehending what I am reading, I don't know if I'm stupid or maybe it's depression but I wish I could be able to enjoy reading a book

>>33379880
>I have committed the Unforgivable Sin by blaspheming the Holy Spirit when I was younger unfortunately
It doesn't work like this. Idk what your personal experiences are but it's not hyper "legalistic" or whatever like this. I'd probably start off small with books also walks in nature are great. The woods and sun make me especially euphoric.

>>33379886
I hope so, I truly believe in God but I think I need to make a bigger effort to reconnect honestly, if that's possible. Thank you for your advice Anon

>>33379815 (OP)
Yeah. You need to cultivate a space where you feel safe and secure. You probably don't have the knowledge, power, or resources to do that right now. Unfortunately you need to get those. I recommend following Diogenes as much as you can, as this will lessen the challenge of how much of reality you feel you need to be able to control to feel secure.

>>33379895
I love Diogenes actually, I love that moment where a bunch of people started throwing chicken bones at him while calling him "man dog" and he just pulled his cock out and started peeing on them.

But yeah, I need to create a better environment, I remember a friend who saw my messy room and mentioned I could have depression

>>33379901
If you live out of a pot or backpack you'd be amazed how easy life is, but that's not for everyone, try and get as close as you can manage, and try not to accumulate useless clutter. Make sacrifices to yourself and you will become your truest self, your God-Self. And yes, clean your room and wash your penis.

You have to make your space a peaceful one. All problems eliminated at their source, enough income to have the things you truly want, and a distraction to keep you busy during your down time.
A lot of people make the mistake of letting problems occupy their personal bubble (physically or mentally) and I honestly don't understand how people live like that. Root out your problems one by one, no matter how hard or painful it might be, and you'll thank yourself in the end.

>>33379880
>I don't know if I'm stupid or maybe it's depression but I wish I could be able to enjoy reading a book
Are you OP? Check out my note on efficient reading: https://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/33313418/#q33316056

>>33379815 (OP)
>I have been through a lot of mental trauma and I'm always on fight or flight mode. Is it possible for me to find peace?

Yeah. But you gotta do the paradox of allowing and accepting the mental trauma and fight or flight as an important part of yourself. Means giving up fighting it, letting yourself be consumed by it entirely on purpose. Then you reconnect with your soul again and you get to know peace once more. Reconnecting with your soul is painful. Whole point of dissociative fight or flight is to run away from yourself inside. Choosing to no longer run and let yourself be engulfed in the pain is crazy painful. But once you do that, you can live again.

>>33379815 (OP)
Fact: anger needs oxygen.

Know the difference between rational anger & irrational anger (my hands are ugly, i hate rainy days, if only i could turn back time, etc).

I suppose the will & confidence is the last to take root in the healing process.

I wish i had known then (49 years ago) what i know now about anger and breathing.