>go outside
>hang out with people
>be spontaneous and impulsive
>laugh, make them laugh
>share yourself, and meet them when they share themselves
>have a good time

>come home
>mfw pic related
>feel like I've made a complete ass off myself
>get hung up on every minor weird or off-putting thing I might have said or done

What causes this, and how do you stop doing it? The post-socializing cringing that is, not the impulsive behavior itself. I love meeting and interacting with people, but I become psychologically abusive to myself as soon as I am alone again. The more fun I have, the worse the upcoming self-judgement is. People perceive me as a social butterfly, but after making them laugh or smile, I usually hate myself for the rest of the day.

>>33382675 (OP)
what sort of quirky chungus behavior are you up to my dude

>>33382700
I just have a really strong personality. Think of me as comparable to Spoony. Pic related is not something that happens every day, but it's the kinda thing I can do from time to time. I am not autistic (seriously, this is from professionals who screened me for it on two separate occassions), nor is it an act I put on. I'm just really impulsive and authentic to a fault.

I also think he did nothing wrong here.

>>33382675 (OP)
chemical high when with friends
high goes away when you leave
not being high = feel bad.

it's normal.
the same happens with anxiety following a night of tipsy confidence.
just a natural part of life

>>33382675 (OP)
Yeah, I think everybody knows this feeling. In my case I was afraid to spill out something, that could harm me in the long run.
The only cure is more exposure with intent. After some time you will learn to think right when you are talking, so there won't be a need to reenact all interactions at the end if the day in your head.

>>33382804
I dunno, when I ask friends who are more normie-inclined, they say that they never dwell on previous interactions like I do.

>>33383448
I think this is getting there. I just need more exposure. I haven't been very outgoing these last few years, but I have been more social than usual lately, and it's probably comparable to muscle soreness in the beginning when you start working out. I just had a really good time today, so it's a shame I become so neurotic over the whole thing as soon as I have a moment of peace.