How do I even figure out my position in society?

>>33388709 (OP)
Start from the bottom. Learn a profession that is actually useful and not saturated.
Work some years and make some money, pursue higher education if, and only if, you think you need it.

sneak into movies and concerts and look for abandon building for projects like shroom spore box or something cool....illegal activity are the only thing that make girls smile nowadays unless your a giga chad

>>33388769
Total bs.