about a year ago i quit my last job. was the best one i ever had, then one day the management went to shit. not sure if it was a personal thing or if the higher ups were just coming down on those below them one day, but all at once it was literal bullying in the workplace.
Decide, for once in my life, I'd hold my own and quit with a long letter describing my grievences. already had a long trip planned within the next week so wasnt too worried about finding a job right away. But when I started looking, a month turned to two, and two turned to three. Then I accepted I wasn't going to get a good job, so just started applying everywhere. Then three months turned to four, and four turned to five. Then I pussied through a suicide attempt, and took a month off.
Only after seven weeks did i manage to go back to another shitty job i had in the past. During that time my net worth dropped to essentially 0 and, despite working for the past two months to get it back its still sitting there.
Now I'm left with a shit job, no money, alcoholism (that outside of the financial loss makes me feel significantly better then life does), and a family trip I can't get out of even if I wanted too.

It feels like my life has followed a similar pattern the last few years. Previously it was a car crash, and an illness. On top of that, it seems like the little things that roll over most peoples backs go about as poorly as you can imagine for me. I never have a little stroke of luck to help me out anymore. I know I don't always make the best decisions, but it seems like it takes all my effort in everything i do just to keep me going.

Admittedly I think i mostly needed to vent, but if anyone has any advice I'd love to hear it.

>>33389226 (OP)
my girlfriend is tibetan and practices buddhism. while i dont believe any of what buddhism practices, there was a time in my life similar to yours.

there are three marks of existence; suffering, change, and a lack of a fixed self. pain is a part of life, but nothing stays the same, and you’re not locked into being the person you are now. shit sucks, yeah, but it won’t suck forever.

youll get better anon, just give it time

>>33389226 (OP)
>quit with a long letter describing my grievences
They don't care retard

Get to the root of the problem.

Something about your behavior or circumstances is causing you to experience this.

If it's your behavior:
This could just be a schizo theory from an armchair psychologist, but you may have borderline-personality disorder. A big part of that disorder is instability. Another thing that makes me think you may have it is when you said, "it seems like the little things that roll over most peoples backs go about as poorly as you can imagine for me." This describes a man I know who has BPD. You probably don't have it, so don't start stressing about it, but it's worth looking into it. It could be something else psychological that is causing all of this as well.

If it's your circumstances:
I know nothing about you. Think of things in your life that may be causing this.

Anon my advice is to always have another Job before quitting your current one if possible.