I want to give up i dont want to improve i dont want to date i dont want anything to do with society i just want to bedrot and do whatever urges i feel most primal but my brain screams at me for connection attention sexual gratification from the opposite sec etc how do i stop feeling these things so i can give up

>>33390026 (OP)
Talk to a therapist and go on SSRIs. Those will numb your emotions and kill your sex drive.

The alternative is that they help you improve your situation and make you feel better, so the fact that your desired outcome is a common side effect is a win win.

>>33390026 (OP)
Move to Alaska, or remote Canada, and live in the woods by hunting and trapping (at least until until a bear eats you). Oh wait, you said you want to "bedrot," which means doing nothing. Sorry, can't help you.