I'm 33. My only girlfriend was a single mother of three who I dumped within a week of being with her because I knew I could not raise another man's kids (and these kids each had a different dad) and she was also an Evangelical and would not fuck me until marriage. Never had sex, crave it often but don't really get out much and live in a small town so I don't really have an opportunity to meet women. I know relationships can be anything from great to okay to even life ruining, and maybe I ultimately don't want to be with a woman, but I'd like to get a taste someday.

Would other anons be able to give me an idea of what I'm missing out on? All the little moments.

>>33394332 (OP)
The thing I miss most about my ex is our inside jokes and little things we would say and text each other. The sex, vacations, food, drinking, parties, holidays, getting to know each other, deep talks, long car rides, movies, TV shows, going shopping etc was the relationship, but the best part to me were all the jokes and fun we had doing it all. I miss you, you fucking dumb cunt.

>>33394352
Thanks, anon.

>>33394332 (OP)
>single mother of three
>an Evangelical and would not fuck me until marriage
LMAO

>>33394391
Yeah it's wild because she made sexual innuendo constantly but she tried to pull this born again virgin shit despite having had 3+ separate dicks in her in her life

>>33394332 (OP)
>Never had sex
She wasn't your girlfriend bro

>>33394332 (OP)
My body count is over 50 but I took finasteride and chemically castrated myself. I consider myself oddly grateful because some people take one pill and become completely disabled and bedridden, some people have scary and persistent mental sides

My only sides are low libido, smaller flaccid dick, and less orgasm sensation.

I dunno

>>33394451
Yeah man, it's a fucked up convoluted situation. She was actually living with a guy while we were "involved" and in retrospect I think she was just using me for emotional validation while that guy was being cold to her. That guy proposed to her and she responded by moving to another state so she could "figure things out"-- by the way she had lived with this guy for five years. Boy did I miss out on a good bitch amirite

>>33394486
Despite everything the more of the story you share the more it appears you're the real loser

>>33394566
How so?

>>33394605
He's calling you pathetic, retard. So many warning signs were probably there. You were clearly desperate, and I'm sure there were other warnings signs that preceded you learning she lives with a man. Which should have been your curtain call, dumbass. Get some self respect.

>>33394352
But to answer the op, this post nails it desu. Sex is just the cherry on top when you meet a girl you can just fuck around and laugh with and be yourself around imo. When she gets you. When you want to be around her. No girl is ever gonna fully understand you obviously but god, learning to love a woman who can constantly make you laugh is one of the greatest mortal joys I got to experience, and it probably won't happen again.

Some people like to hype up body count or sexual experience, but I always treasured her character and personality long before sex ever happened, and I think that's the most important thing you can feel you miss out on-- another genuine soul. But most of us don't even get that when we do get into relationships, mostly because they put sex at the forefront, I think. Everyone has their own values though, when it comes to people, and what you seek from them.

You aren't "missing out" of anything measurable though. Nothing anyone can tell you on an individual level in regards to YOU. You're asking an impossible question because what you have with another individual may have parallels to other relationships, but it will always be unique to you and the other person. You might have the potential for a grand love if you find the right person. You might not. You can only know what you're missing out on after it leaves you.

>>33394664
Well, she said she was moving out, which she did end up doing but only after about 3 months of us knowing each other. Egg on my face, huh?

>>33395081
Another thing is that aside from the kids and the other man, that chick was everything I wanted looks, personality, and interests-wise. It was like a cruel prank from God that she'd already had a million kids and wouldn't fuck me.

>>33394664
Anyway, thanks for the summary, anon. I suppose I could never really know until I had a relationship but I've never really been in a situation to be in one so I'm simply left wondering, and sometimes wildly lusting.

>>33395161
If it helps you deal, you should realize that you're contradicting yourself. She wasn't "everything you wanted." She had kids and probably a fuckton of baggage you wouldn't see until later. Trust me, she isn't all you probably think she is now. No one with different baby daddies is ever, ever, ever gonna change and be a good option for anything other than the history that proceeds them. Remember that if you meet another girl. You have to VET THEM. If you don't at least know them as friends for half a year don't consider moving forward with anything.

But shit happens and some of us learn faster than others. Honestly it isn't something you can look for. It can appear before you, you can recognize it, and choose your actions, but love can't be hunted. And relationships are just what two people choose to do with each other-- and it does take TWO people. It all falls apart the minute someone gets cold feet. And that happens often.

It's easy to get imaginative and dream about some perfect relationship, but just remember what you experienced here. Everyone is just some flawed person and that's something you need to accept in a relationship. It's not really a blessing anymore than it is a challenge and a growing experience, and yes it can be rewarding, but I think that comes with maturity, and as a general rule of thumb, you won't find something you feel you're missing out on with some used up whore with kids. She would not give you what you want even if you did get with her. Live and learn and move on, man.

>>33396042
I appreciate it, anon. I'm really inexperienced and frankly kind of desperate at this point so you'll have to excuse me a little if I sound silly. I really have no idea what I'm doing.

>>33396154
Of course man. I'm in the same boat, little experience but I learned a lot from what I did have. Grieve if you have to. Don't be ashamed to cry. It helps drastically to process what you feel instead of holding it in or becoming resentful or wishing it went some different way. I went through a lot of different emotions losing the first girl I was really close to recently and it makes you reflect a lot. It isn'y really so bad to fumble with hoes not worth your time, though. Those are still valuable learning experiences. They're still women, and you can learn a lot from their behaviors. If you see those kinds of signs in a future woman you'll know how close or far you need to stay to her. Stay humble. Watch your own heart a little closer next time. Don't hand it to a callous woman so easily

>>33396646
Thanks, anon. If I told you the full story, it would probably make a little bit more sense but then it would also sound even more retarded on my part because this chick was a coworker, too. I just couldn't help myself, but man believe you me this was a learning experience.

Small town is the hard part. You're basically stuck online dating or going to a single's church.

Try to find anything to do outside. If your town is too small for a local game store, the best thing you can do is leave for some kind of civilization.

>>33398605
There's women around, even here, but meeting them is another matter. No idea where to start on that or how many of them would even be acquirable, you know how it is.

>>33394395
It's much more than 3 if she's had 3 kids

>>33399708
Of course. She was obviously a whore and I think her going Evangelical was her very clumsy way of trying to atone for that. I'm not opposed to religion but in her case I think it was more of a way to shield herself from more trouble and feel like less of a crazy megawhore, but she will probably never find peace. She could not resist telling me when all her kids will be grown and how she couldn't wait to be rid of them. Those children are sure to be productive members of society in the future.

>>33394332 (OP)
>>33394391
>>33394395
Fucking kek. It sounds so comical and unreal unless you actually know women like this. I've met a "born again virgin" before, it wasn't as bad as this one but still really bad. At least the one I knew was just a slut and didn't have kids. Still, it's hilarious.

>>33394352
This.

>>33400644
>Still, it's hilarious.
She was touchy-feely like mad and talked about wanting me to give her foot massages and make out with her, but somehow no fucking was to ever be allowed to take place. As my first "relationship", it was the most surreal thing I've ever experienced.

Pic related, this is a real text she sent me at one point.

>>33394332 (OP)
Yes

>>33401930
Lol